Today..

Hehez..ok..let's forget about just now, sorry for being emo..it's not that i am not emo, i am still very emo, but just trying to act that i am not.

This morning i woke up at eight thirty in the morning..[well, haven't been sleeping well since my baby went home..]..T.T..well, then i got up and bath, when i finish, it was about nine, and i got ready and stuff till about nine-thirty..took some pictures also...


So, then i went to kevin's place and meet up with them. Then Gerald was sitting in front of the tv, but not looking at tv, but laptop. haha.. so we got reaady and took a cab to putrajaya central. William went to class..haha..then, on the way, william called kevin and said that he has no class, it has been cancelled..So, william went to putra too by cab, when we reached there, we waited for the rapid bus..[ first time sitting..] haha..cannot blame ma..i come from ipoh..hehez...so we went into putrajaya, the JPN there, cz Gerald neede to make his temporary ic, he lost his wallet again..haha.


This dicture was taken in the JPN building. look at the shop name..'Mai MAdAH SHop'..haha...we were like..'my mother shop...hahaha..[that's my two son..gerald and kev]

Then we took metrobus to Serdang ktm staion.[first time on metro too]..then from serdang, we took ktm to kl central..[ took a few times d..] then we change to putra line and went to ampang park. why? cz gerald neede to go to maybank there.. haha..i know you must be asking why there. rite? cz his branch is there. After that, we went bek to the putra station.on the way, bought slurpy..hehez..and we went to wangsa maju for lunch..haha.looked so like ipoh town..hehez..
anywayz..we ate hawker food..After that, we went back to kl central and change to ktm and went to mid valley, haha..mid valley, we oni went to a few places. anime tech, comic store, arcade [kev got me addicted to para-para..but it's good la..since there's no ddr here in kl..*sobs*]..FINally we ate dinner at sushi king..=]..*slurrppp*..hehez..my fav....
then it was ten.wanted to walk..but all close so we took ktm and came bek to serdang and then took a cab back here again..haha...

i'm sorry baby..

i'm sorry baby, for yelling at you over the phone..i'm sorry. I know that you did not call me to hear me being scolded or hear me getting pissed. but u called straight after i argued with her. i'm sorry.. i love you my baby. pls forgive me. i'm sorry..T.T.. Just now, i cry on the phone. until now, i'm sorry, i din mean too..=[..sorry...T.T

Fuck her!~!~!~!

FuCK HER!!!!!!!!!!
wtf??????????
i hate her so much...For the last time, why can't she just shut up and leave me alone?????
saying i'm going wild..my ass is only going wild la..i'm so fucking pised off. Bloody bitch...wants to control life? control her own fucking life first la. always complianing and regretting.. So?? what the fuck those it have to do with me??? Go do something about it la...
Fucking Chibai...Eat shit la..i cannot go online ga? i cannot watch tv ga??
somemore ask me to go study?? what the fuck am i suppose to study now?? how to kill her a? or study HOW TO kill mYSELF?????????
stupid.. leave me alone la..for once..just LET ME GO AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mac book

omg..i wanna get mac book. it's white in color.. it has built in camera and so. wow..everything in it. Just hope that Uncle Brian is able to convince dad that it is the best for me. it is 1.8 inch thick..[almost same size as my laptop now] but the screen is 13 inch. hehez.. and mostly, it's white..=]..

That is one black and one white..one is 13 inch the other is 15 inch...Black looks common..but the black when it's close, it looks better..have a look.

See? The black one looks much more better.. hehez..the inside is cool..simply and classy..not as complicated as the rest...
There it is..hehez..black would look like Vio..sony brand..[which is also among my choices] but i'll upload on that after i do a research on it..=]

sad story

I was watching tv. Potrait home ii. Anybody of you watch that? Just that, this drama is a very touching one, and i love watching it. Today is a very dramatic episode. One of the brother tried to rape his uncles' daughter. And turn out, that daughter has been haunted, cz when she was studying in Australia, she was raped by gangsters and her boyfriend just stood aside and watched then he ran away. =/. i was almost in tears cz of that, how could that boy do that to his own girlfriend? And he did not even help her at all, after that he disappeared. [such a cruel guy to be allowed to live in this world]. This girl after bring haunted was afraid and she started wacking the guy non-stop. [you go girl!=)]. Very unfortunately the guy was being wack at that place...[ahem..guys..very painful ler..] hehez...and due to the girl wacking non-stop and too hard..hehez...u know la..he fainted and was admitted to the hospital, then the doctor mention..he cannot ''have fun anymore'' poor thing.. but he still can celebrate fathers day..cz he has a son..haha.
But he is a very bad man..[i din like him].. selfish, inconsiderate and many many more..bad attitude la..then many more..then everybody angry at the girl's father, then she blurted out what happen in Australia. Then the father burst into tears, saying he was a useless father and so on..[ you know la..being dramatic..]

haihz..so touching rite??must watch!!hehez...

*sobs*..making me remember what happen years ago...*scared*....*shiver*....But now..it's over..let's forget it..hehez...

today..

What did i do today??my baby must be wondering. Well, the both of us are running low on credit, so we can't really talk on the phone, what more we can't see each other. So i know my baby must be wondering what i am doing. right? hehez. Baby, two months i won't be seeing you, haha..then when you go online, you will have to read many many of my blogs and entries o..just hope that you won't fall asleep..hehez..

Haven't been doing much. Just hoping that my sister's friend, Yue Meng, is going back ipoh this weekend. then i can follow him, then i can spend more time with you in sunway this saturday. hehez. *yippee* Then i won't be seeing you for 6 weeks..*sobs*..i will miss you alot..no wiat..not i will..cz i Am already missing you..

i did this out of boredom..

loneliness

This loneliness inside me,
omg....
i feel so bored..
and so lonely...

Febuary 26th..

226, Febuary 26th, i know, you guys must be wondering why i would mention this day all of sudden? Well, it is because, this day is a very important day to me. I never really told anyone about it, and since, i am so bored and free. And i know people would start asking, so, here it is.

After Bin broke up with me early december last year [ spm wasn't even over ]. I turned down all the guys. I do not know why, but at that moment, somehow i just thought that, maybe bin would consider me back. And just maybe. As i thought of it now, Bin is different than the rest, it doesn't mean i still love him deeply. But it is just that, me and him wouldn't go along so well. I mean as in couple, now, he is my didi and i will always love him and care for him as a little brother.

JOnathAn Lim....Such a common name. Ain't it? Well, i have friends with that name, i even have a cousin with that name [he's in sabah]. and now, my love, my baby, my boyfriend. That's his name. 26th febuary was the day he asked me to be his girlfriend. He asked to take care of me.
I met him during orientation when i came to limkokwing university college [LUCT]. I never really remember everyone's face. But he was one, i met on the bus on 5th febuary 2007, it was the day we newcomers needed to enroll. I saw him at the front of the bus and i never forget him.
The first time i actually talked to him was during orientation. We had events. On the second day, we had to form twenty per-group. So, i was being for active and somehow was being hyper and very socializing, i saw him and kevin standing at a corner. So i took the chance to pull him into the group. So that's how i knew him and the whole gang of us now. [jon, kev, gerald, bryan, they all]

I got close with jon on the day carol went to australia. I came back to my hostel at 12 in the middle of night. Jon was there to help me to carry my things up. After that night, we chat on msn,, and when we go out as a group i'll be msg'ing him. soon, the second week, we got close to each other thru msn and sms.. then it was semester break. It was Chinese New Year holidayz, and we sms'ed alot.


and the story continues

It happened when i was in his room, i brought down my cd's, and we were listening to them. Until we reached a song name 'heaven' sung by Nu Fluvour and he just asked me to listen to the lyrics. There was a silence between us. Then, all sudden, he just asked me whether i could be his girlfriend. and he was on his knees. wow...i was so speechless and i really did not know what to do. or what to say. so i said 'okaylo..'' then he asked why i answer until so forcingly..i was like..=__________=...feeling awkward and embarrassed the both of us were. Then we just kept silent until the song was over, then, we changed into another subject..

so that's how he asked me.

finally a day is over...

Finally, it's eight smth, and the day is almost over. haihz.. all i am waiting for is tomorrow night, Yue Meng is going to gimme an answer whether he is going back on saturday night or not.If he is going back, then i'll follow him la. Hope that he is going back la.If not i am stuck here, die...haihz..

Today, i haven't been doing anything, was sitting in bed, with my guitar, and video convo with my sister. haihz. it think about two hours. but everything was just crap..i am so freaking boring that it is getting up my nerves. OMG....

Just got off the phone with my baby, both of us were screaming over the phone..haihz..i jsut do hoped that he understnad my frus-ness of being bored here. i mean he went home, how also there's something to do. I am stuck in my unit, where the kettle is not working, the toilet has problem, the air-con is leaking. Sometimes it's cold, sometime's it's hot. I only have seven bucks in my wallet and i can't go anywhere. I don't have this months bus card, i am all alone, and i seriously have NOTHING to do..where he is different. I don't blame him for not understanding, I blame myself la. Feeling so bad that i yelled at him on the phone. Haihz..sorry...

another day of boredom..

still in my pyjamas i am, still drowzy i am, still cudlling in the bllanket i am, still in ta blurry situation i am.

=__= '''haihz...here is it..another day of boredom, i seroiusly do not know what to do. This morning, dad called me, saying that he can't come this saturday. ish..gotta find another way. i think at the end, i need to take bus le...haihz..what to do..anyone going to ipoh???i am currently thinking of how to go back.. i wanna go back.. with my laptop, guitar. then what about my clothes??it is not that my dad can't come. is just that, he is busy. This weekend he has dinner, ten sunday he has golf. well, can't always be a burden. have to go back by bus la...unless, anyone going back??????

i just feel like going back to sleep, haihz..it's almst three in the afternoon..haihz..too bad i can't sleep and wake up then it's saturday..haha...
reli dreaming aren't i?

lousy

my god..and to think that the kettle in my baby's place being broken is bad enuf. but at my place is worst. the kettle is leaking. shit. i am dying of thirst here. am i able to get water anywhere at one smth in the middle of the night?haihz..i miss water..and i love it..the toilet has problem. and the room air-con is leaking even though i have said it to the warden. if the tv is not working, i got no more to say. and then, what is worst? internet not working well..=.='''
and i am going to be here for ONE WHOLE WEEK....i am seriously going to die of boredom...

so here i am

again just sitting on my bed, thinking aimlessly. my god...when am i going to stop doing that? anyways, it's past twelve and i'm just dun feel like sleeping, miss the days with my baby. haihz..can't wait for saturday to come, as we're going to sunway..haha..surf beach..yay..i can see my baby there..wahaha...

Bored...

I can't wait till saturday, then i can see my baby. at sunway lagoon, cz we plan to go to the summer splash party..wohoo!!!=]..
But for now, it is pure boredom..what to do?
i think i can fall asleep the whole day..
oh crap..

loneliness

so here i am..putting another entry into my blog..
well, what can i say then?

my baby has went home, so here i am..all alone in my room. my own room..kinda thinking of it.i rarely spend time here too..came back yesterday night and saw the notice stuck at my door. it is written that i am to clear the other bed because it is being reserved.well, it is the second time there are saying it. haha.who knows? mayb i might reli have a roomate..
that, we will have to see when the time comes. Might be shifting out to cyberia there. well, that is if my baby will be moving too..

yesterday we had our final presentation. omg.. i just felt like crying. As leader, i failed, and i suck at it. i got no one to blame but myself. haihz.. just pray and do hope that i get the best grades. I will try my best to work hard the next semester.
I feel bad and i'm very sorry to my fellow teams..I'm sorry if i let you down.

Somehow, my life seems so boring without my baby here. haihz. what to do? I just hope that time will pass faster and second semester will start, and then i can see my baby.