today, i came in kl..
yesterday my mom bought the bus ticket, we sat MARA LINEAR... she asked the ladt if the bus was air-conditioned...the malay lady said..''bukan air-con...hawa dingin''......O_o
what the???? isn't air-condition hawa dingin???
haihz..
malays nowadays...what is in thier mind?? i reli wonder..
anywayz....
so, the bus ticket sez 11 am...in the morning...
[i wasn't suppose to sit the bus..]T.T...i so wanted to cry..
not fair..haihz....i'm so depress and emo..haihz...
anywayz, right now, i'm already in kl and he's on the way from ipoh to kl. tomorrow hope i'll be spending time with him ler.. so, then, i woke up at 9, had breakfast and then packed a bit more stuff. the bus was suppose to leave at eleven!!!! but then, eleven thirty oni the bus driver came....[please remind me not to take taht bus ever again]
there was oni like 7 person in the car...=_='''
so then, it moved...lucky it wasn't as slow as sri maju.in two hours aroud there it reached duta.. and uncle eddie came with colin and christopher and then we went to 1u...
but my baby wasn't there...haihz...
what to do??
We went back to Uncle Daniels place, and then after all the confusion..[ugh! it's so frustrating] we went to KLCC...then went to find Uncle Joe [ this is getting confusing ]
so anyway, i was spending time at the hotel and sms'ing my baby...i was growing moss...and then, we went to klcc for dinner..mdm kwan..then, i had to bring chris to take the lrt to kelana jaya..there i had to wait..like for how long? half an hour?? haihz....my legs were killing me...so then, i was there..and then uncle Brian came and then he fetched me home.. so here i am, sitting here on the bed in colin's ibook G4 typing my blog..
and i am so happy..
haha
cz it's not laggin...
yipee!!!
i just can't wait for my macbook pro..
hehez..
then tomorrow..,i just hope there's no disappointement...i wanna see my baby...
Friday, 6 July 2007
Wednesday, 4 July 2007
last sunday
i know this is a very late entry, but yea..still.
i went to jj with kai xin,
the freaking ddr wasn''t working. why isn't it working???
not fair...haihz...
then i was taught to the the pump it five step one...not fun
i still prefer the four step one..ish..
but then, after that, we went to watch surf's up..* an advice to all other- dun watch it in a cinema, it's not worth it *
then we took some picture, it's a lil blur cz i dun have scanner...
Sunday, 1 July 2007
changes
I never reli thought that dreams can come through, nomatter how tough it is, if you try your best, it will come...
this is what i've learned...
people use to ask me what is my dream, or questions like what do i plan to do whn i graduate or...you know, questions like that...i always tend to get lost. i won't know what to answer. I've always thought that dreams can never come true.. Until now, i realized that dreams can reli come true. if you work hard for it.
Everybody has ambition, right? to be a business man, or woman.. a lawyer, a doctor , an architect or anything. Why did they chose it? no choice? parents? or for the sake of getting money...I've always been worried about this. until, i found out. and he made me realized. i should make myself happy and i decided to do what i love to do.. And i know,by doing that, i make myself happy. =]
So, these are the changes that was made. i feel happier cz i know that i can do that i can do what i loved. and won't regret for not doing it.
this is what i've learned...
people use to ask me what is my dream, or questions like what do i plan to do whn i graduate or...you know, questions like that...i always tend to get lost. i won't know what to answer. I've always thought that dreams can never come true.. Until now, i realized that dreams can reli come true. if you work hard for it.
Everybody has ambition, right? to be a business man, or woman.. a lawyer, a doctor , an architect or anything. Why did they chose it? no choice? parents? or for the sake of getting money...I've always been worried about this. until, i found out. and he made me realized. i should make myself happy and i decided to do what i love to do.. And i know,by doing that, i make myself happy. =]
So, these are the changes that was made. i feel happier cz i know that i can do that i can do what i loved. and won't regret for not doing it.
Friday, 22 June 2007
it;s been a while
it's been a while since i came online.
right now, i can't go online everyday 24 hours like i am in kl..
i have nothing to do...
i passed my undang the second time with a score of 44/50..[is that bad?]
my baby passed with 48/50..[CONGRaTULATiONs]
for the pass four days, i have been helping my brother with his project. stupid project have to hand in today. I had to do all the typing a! he le? play dota only..what the heck?? screw him la.
today, i went to parade with mom, and bought two pair of heals..=]...they are so beautiful..i love heals..wanted to buy some shirt but my mom was around. she'll screw me. went bra-shopping....carol!!where are you??let's go shopping!!!
right now, i can't go online everyday 24 hours like i am in kl..
i have nothing to do...
i passed my undang the second time with a score of 44/50..[is that bad?]
my baby passed with 48/50..[CONGRaTULATiONs]
for the pass four days, i have been helping my brother with his project. stupid project have to hand in today. I had to do all the typing a! he le? play dota only..what the heck?? screw him la.
today, i went to parade with mom, and bought two pair of heals..=]...they are so beautiful..i love heals..wanted to buy some shirt but my mom was around. she'll screw me. went bra-shopping....carol!!where are you??let's go shopping!!!
Sunday, 17 June 2007
Here are some random pic's..
That's me and stitches...
That's my brother..we were in kopitiam..haha...
me just searching for food in the 'peti sejuk'..haha..
i miss it...
hmmm...
Hmmm... i all of sudden just realized that i am being ignored..
*sigh*.why d people start talking bad if i get emo or jus unhappy?everybody is like ''You have everything and what you want, why are you making a small fuss??''
yada yada yada...
haihz...dunno la..maybe, and just maybe.
My best friend, what happen? I really don't know, i'm sorry if i offended her, but just that. I feel that..i am ignored..and maybe, just maybe, I am nothing but just some friend whom you saw at the mall and smile and say hi then you walk off. And just maybe, i don't deserve a rfiend like that.
I am back in ipoh, and i have been getting emo lately. Once or twice i went out with friend. But somehow, there just seem to be a gap between us.
So what does a bestfriend means? I don't have someone whom i can talk crazily about guys. I don't have someone who can go hyper and craz together. I don't have a girlfriend. Whom, i can spend my time with. I can't sing happily and just laugh with a girlfriend. I can't just spnd slepover time with her. Sometimes i thought she was the one. BUt then, now i realized, i am not that close with her, we may laugh and go crazy, but it only last for a few days.
I always envy my sister who has so many close friends. Me? I can't even bring one home. What more o have some friend t spend time with. The only person i spend time wih is, my boyfriend in kl. but that was in kl. I got n one to talk to about him. Recently, things have not been going so well, and, i just can talk to nobody.
I cam online, thinking mayb i could find her and cher myself up, but, she gave me the cold tone like she did not want to talk to me.
I'm really sorry if i did anything that offended you, and i'm sorry.
*sigh*.why d people start talking bad if i get emo or jus unhappy?everybody is like ''You have everything and what you want, why are you making a small fuss??''
yada yada yada...
haihz...dunno la..maybe, and just maybe.
My best friend, what happen? I really don't know, i'm sorry if i offended her, but just that. I feel that..i am ignored..and maybe, just maybe, I am nothing but just some friend whom you saw at the mall and smile and say hi then you walk off. And just maybe, i don't deserve a rfiend like that.
I am back in ipoh, and i have been getting emo lately. Once or twice i went out with friend. But somehow, there just seem to be a gap between us.
So what does a bestfriend means? I don't have someone whom i can talk crazily about guys. I don't have someone who can go hyper and craz together. I don't have a girlfriend. Whom, i can spend my time with. I can't sing happily and just laugh with a girlfriend. I can't just spnd slepover time with her. Sometimes i thought she was the one. BUt then, now i realized, i am not that close with her, we may laugh and go crazy, but it only last for a few days.
I always envy my sister who has so many close friends. Me? I can't even bring one home. What more o have some friend t spend time with. The only person i spend time wih is, my boyfriend in kl. but that was in kl. I got n one to talk to about him. Recently, things have not been going so well, and, i just can talk to nobody.
I cam online, thinking mayb i could find her and cher myself up, but, she gave me the cold tone like she did not want to talk to me.
I'm really sorry if i did anything that offended you, and i'm sorry.
sorry..
Sorry or the emo blog just now.
dunno why lately i'm been so down and emo...
haihz...
reli sorry..
dunno why lately i'm been so down and emo...
haihz...
reli sorry..
*sigh*
Minute by minute i sit here and think. What is happening? why is this happening?
Tears is falling down my cheek. Why is this? Can someone please tell me?
My heart hurt. Why? Baby, why is this happening to me?
I don't want, i want to see you smile like last time.
Sometimes, my vision goes blur and my face wet. Why?
I don't know what to say. Everytime i open my mouth, i am afraid that it would happen again.
Is there something i did wrong? What is it?
Please tell me.
Again and again i tell myself, i find the facts that i am wrong, but why am i still feeling so emo and sad?
I miss you, i want to see you. I want to hug you, I want to sleep on your lap. I want you to smile at me and say i am cute.
I want you to look at me in the eye and tell me that you love me. I want to play guitar and sing song with you.
I want to cook maggie with you. I want to wake up in the morning, and kiss you on the cheek telling you that i am going off.
I want to watch tv with you. I want to play with you. I want to sleep in your arms and listen to you talk.
What happen to the days? We use to be so happy and lively. What happen to us?
Why must this happen? I don't want.
Now, i am all alone, in my room, every night, i sleep alone in my spacious room, with an empty bed next to me.
With snuffles and stitches, something seem to be missing. I miss the times we use to snatch for the space inside.
Now, i can sleep where i want. but it is so empty, I don't want this. I want you to be here.
In the middle of the night, i wake up, feeling so uncomfortable, i want you to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be fine.
In the morning i wake up, with a nightmare, all alone, my room so empty. My parents are not in, they are not free, my brother iin school.
I call up my friends, nobody is free. I go out, i go walk around in the shopping mall alone, tryin to get it off my mind,
But i can't, i miss holding your hands while going out. I miss walking round and round the same place with you.
So, i decided to buy and try on some clothes, but then, i miss you not holding my bag.
i miss you giving opinion on the clothes.
Then i go home, i miss using up the lift, getting ready my own key to open the door.
my maid opens the door and i force a smile, i miss you opening the door for me.
I go up the stairs, i miss going in the lift with you, I miss having fun with you in the lift.
I o in my room, i see my guitars on my sister's bed, and i play it, but, i miss playing with you. I miss you teaching me.
I miss you being impress and i miss you telling me i play and catch up better than you.
At night, i miss watching movie with you in your room, i miss you laughing at me and say me kesian cannot find a comfortable position.
I miss cleaning up your room, I miss wearing your shirt.
All in all, i realize how much i missed you...
*sigh*
Is it my fault? That I miss you so much that i miss you until i have no mood to do anything.
I miss you so much thai fuss over small things. I miss you so much that i don't want to talk to anyone else.
I miss you so much that it has made me change. Is it my fault? i'm sorry if it is. i'm sorry. i love you.
i really do. i miss you so much that i myself don't know what i am doing. I'm sorry, please forgive me.
i know that you don't like it. but i will try my best just keep it in me for two months. i'm sorry.
it's not your fault. I should have known that you were sleeping, and i should not ask for your atention so much since you are so far away.
i'm really sorry. i really love you.
Tears is falling down my cheek. Why is this? Can someone please tell me?
My heart hurt. Why? Baby, why is this happening to me?
I don't want, i want to see you smile like last time.
Sometimes, my vision goes blur and my face wet. Why?
I don't know what to say. Everytime i open my mouth, i am afraid that it would happen again.
Is there something i did wrong? What is it?
Please tell me.
Again and again i tell myself, i find the facts that i am wrong, but why am i still feeling so emo and sad?
I miss you, i want to see you. I want to hug you, I want to sleep on your lap. I want you to smile at me and say i am cute.
I want you to look at me in the eye and tell me that you love me. I want to play guitar and sing song with you.
I want to cook maggie with you. I want to wake up in the morning, and kiss you on the cheek telling you that i am going off.
I want to watch tv with you. I want to play with you. I want to sleep in your arms and listen to you talk.
What happen to the days? We use to be so happy and lively. What happen to us?
Why must this happen? I don't want.
Now, i am all alone, in my room, every night, i sleep alone in my spacious room, with an empty bed next to me.
With snuffles and stitches, something seem to be missing. I miss the times we use to snatch for the space inside.
Now, i can sleep where i want. but it is so empty, I don't want this. I want you to be here.
In the middle of the night, i wake up, feeling so uncomfortable, i want you to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be fine.
In the morning i wake up, with a nightmare, all alone, my room so empty. My parents are not in, they are not free, my brother iin school.
I call up my friends, nobody is free. I go out, i go walk around in the shopping mall alone, tryin to get it off my mind,
But i can't, i miss holding your hands while going out. I miss walking round and round the same place with you.
So, i decided to buy and try on some clothes, but then, i miss you not holding my bag.
i miss you giving opinion on the clothes.
Then i go home, i miss using up the lift, getting ready my own key to open the door.
my maid opens the door and i force a smile, i miss you opening the door for me.
I go up the stairs, i miss going in the lift with you, I miss having fun with you in the lift.
I o in my room, i see my guitars on my sister's bed, and i play it, but, i miss playing with you. I miss you teaching me.
I miss you being impress and i miss you telling me i play and catch up better than you.
At night, i miss watching movie with you in your room, i miss you laughing at me and say me kesian cannot find a comfortable position.
I miss cleaning up your room, I miss wearing your shirt.
All in all, i realize how much i missed you...
*sigh*
Is it my fault? That I miss you so much that i miss you until i have no mood to do anything.
I miss you so much thai fuss over small things. I miss you so much that i don't want to talk to anyone else.
I miss you so much that it has made me change. Is it my fault? i'm sorry if it is. i'm sorry. i love you.
i really do. i miss you so much that i myself don't know what i am doing. I'm sorry, please forgive me.
i know that you don't like it. but i will try my best just keep it in me for two months. i'm sorry.
it's not your fault. I should have known that you were sleeping, and i should not ask for your atention so much since you are so far away.
i'm really sorry. i really love you.
Friday, 15 June 2007
late entry
14th June 2007
It has been a few days since i blogged... komenasai.. Didn't reli have time to do it.
Anyway, have to type in my laptop, and then, send to me pen-drive, then send it to my desktop and then only i can nline and post it.
*sigh* Today is Thursday and i don't think i will be going anywhere.
Monday, I went to the dental, she said i could not take it off that time, i still need to wear it for a month more.
So, i'll be taking it off on the 19th july. At least i dun have to wear it back to kl..
Tuesday, I went out with grandma, *whisper*[she gave me money...shhhh...], and grandpa was there too.
We went out for breakfast, satay and chicken hor fun. haha..Then, went home. At about one smth, mom dropped me off at amc [my secondory school]
wakakaka.....stood there like an idiot,
cz my friend was lost. No wait, it was more like. I lost my friend. Anywayz, we met also. Saw lotz of juniors and ppl i knew, but they all din know it was me..
*sad*..can't blame ler, i change my hair-style ma. Saw pn. low [my chinese teacher] aw...miss her much.
Then we went to music room, CHOIR!!!...
haha...they were all shocked and suprise..=]..suprises are great..
hehez...After that, went to parade, took cab there, it's cheap ma..So, went shopping alone. Met friends too...
but they all could not recognize me tooo...=[...T.T...
Wednesday, woke up at 8. Cause i was going to listen undang..omg...8.30 to 3.30..*sigh*..why so long??
stupid ler all these baka rulez...so, sat there and listen lo, at the beginning it was fine and ok. but when the second lecturer came in.
i fell asleep..O_______o.......komenasai...hehez...^^...but i just couldn't help it. i was too tired...haha....
Planning to take the test on saturday...hehez...pray that i pass ler..
It has been a few days since i blogged... komenasai.. Didn't reli have time to do it.
Anyway, have to type in my laptop, and then, send to me pen-drive, then send it to my desktop and then only i can nline and post it.
*sigh* Today is Thursday and i don't think i will be going anywhere.
Monday, I went to the dental, she said i could not take it off that time, i still need to wear it for a month more.
So, i'll be taking it off on the 19th july. At least i dun have to wear it back to kl..
Tuesday, I went out with grandma, *whisper*[she gave me money...shhhh...], and grandpa was there too.
We went out for breakfast, satay and chicken hor fun. haha..Then, went home. At about one smth, mom dropped me off at amc [my secondory school]
wakakaka.....stood there like an idiot,
cz my friend was lost. No wait, it was more like. I lost my friend. Anywayz, we met also. Saw lotz of juniors and ppl i knew, but they all din know it was me..
*sad*..can't blame ler, i change my hair-style ma. Saw pn. low [my chinese teacher] aw...miss her much.
Then we went to music room, CHOIR!!!...
haha...they were all shocked and suprise..=]..suprises are great..
hehez...After that, went to parade, took cab there, it's cheap ma..So, went shopping alone. Met friends too...
but they all could not recognize me tooo...=[...T.T...
Wednesday, woke up at 8. Cause i was going to listen undang..omg...8.30 to 3.30..*sigh*..why so long??
stupid ler all these baka rulez...so, sat there and listen lo, at the beginning it was fine and ok. but when the second lecturer came in.
i fell asleep..O_______o.......komenasai...hehez...^^...but i just couldn't help it. i was too tired...haha....
Planning to take the test on saturday...hehez...pray that i pass ler..
i miss you
As I sit on my bed,
I begin to wander,
Off into my dreams,
And fantasy world.
The cold air outside,
Rushes through my window,
As if the air,
Running out into space.
I dreamed of you,
Day and night,
Badly wishing,
You to be here.
At times I think,
Are you the one?
At times I think,
Am I the one?
About the future,
But yet promises were made,
What if we broke them?
And it’s true,
I always wonder,
Do you miss me?
And the time passes,
I often wonder,
About our future.
late at night,
Wonder when,
the night would pass.
Two months is long,
For me and for you.
We both wish,
that time would pass by.
And we become together,
Again for three months,
Then we would be apart.
10th june 2007 [sunday]
Today, woke up at 10…No wait…It was my mom who woke me up… she was like a morning chicken who would not shut up. Omg. I had to wake up. Slept in her room. Next to my dad, and ended up chatting with him and slept at one smth. Haha… Can’t blame my dad loving me can’t you? Hehez….
So, we didn’t go church cause the mass was at night. We went to breakfast instead, went to eat bah kut teh.
Then came home, watch anime in my mom’s room. School rumble 2. I’m not done with that. Ish. Dunno when only I will finish it. omg… I still have other’s not done yet. Haha.Well, I have been keeping myself busy that I don’t have time to watch anime. Haha. My brother has been bugging me to buy gundam. And he has been complaining why did I not buy for him while I was in kl. I mean, at least tell me which edition he wants la. Haha.. oh shit, la he’s gonna ask me for his birthday present for the gundam modal thingy like he asked carol then my wallet go down drain liao..haha…
At night, we went to Stadium Indera Mulia, where the mass [praying session] was held. Weird right? You must be thinking why in the stadium right? Well, it is because, three churches are holding them together, that’s why they rented the stadium, well, for one night. Right? As usual matthew was the server, so me and my mom went, since my dad went for golf. Then I shuh yin and lay chian was also coming. So is Kim Fatt [my cousin] and their whole family, including Catherine, Nicholas and Stephanie and they brought ee-laine too..*jumps with joy*..
People could not recognize me, *sad*, I was like waving my hand until they saw. And they were like ‘eh?it’s ailing!’.. I was like..O_______o…..
The mass ended like after 2 hours. Then we went to eat loklok..haha..i ate 21 sticks…wakakaka…
Sunway [summer splash]
Yesterday, Sunway was fun. We did not go on the rides or anything, but we were at the surf beach [the only place we were allowed to go to]. Anyway, we left Desaria at 9.40 in the morning and reached Sunway pyramid about 10.02 in the morning. Kevin called jon, but he wasn’t there yet. So, we decided to just walk around. Then, ang met his friend, so we kinda waited for them to chat finish before we start walking around, then I saw jon, walking pass and holding his phone..[miss him so much].
Jon pretended not the know me, so I played along and pretended not to know him, but he disappointed me a bit, he did not mention anything about my hair at all. Omg.. haihz..not fair..he looked nice.. Nomatter in anyway, well, he is my boyfriend, so he look best to me anytime. But he did not say anything to me. Nothing at all..*sad*..
I merajuk and ask about my hair. He only said ‘’It was okay-lah’’. I was like..O______o…..okay only a??? But I did not say it out to him la. That was what was in my heart. That’s why at I was a little bit disappointment. I mean, which girl does not want their boyfriend to praise them often? Especially when they just did their hair. I cut my hair, change my hairstyle, but he only said it was okay.
Then, Yue Meng picked me up from Sunway, then turn up and down round kl [malas nak detail] then head to
I can't uploads the pictures now. reli very sorry..
Friday, 8 June 2007
one more day..
It's friday, and i have one more day being here in desaria..
tomorrow morning, we will be going to sunway..then i can meet up with my baby..wahaha..we are planning to take a cab from here to sunway..RM25...haha..back in ipoh...it's like RM8 you can go from one end to the other..haha..
i see..now why kl life is different.well, it is also a good way..hehez...
I'm suppose to pack, but i'm still here online and watching tv...iaks...
Today, i was suprise. cz i was watching anime [skul rumble 2] then you know when someone sign in in msn,they will pop up..haha..then all of sudden i see..it's my baby..i thought i was dreaming. after pas few days, all the misses and dreams all of sudden i just see him online, so i msg him..haha...and he replied..wohooo!!!!haha..i'm going crazy..and tomolo i will be seeing him...yay....
Tomorrow, is also the day i'm going, yue meng is going to fetch me back...aiks..my mom is gonne have arguements and fights with me. sometimes i just wonder why can't she let me go. ish ish ish...anywayz....
i miss jonathan lim!!!!!!!
i love you..hehez..
muakzzxx~
tomorrow morning, we will be going to sunway..then i can meet up with my baby..wahaha..we are planning to take a cab from here to sunway..RM25...haha..back in ipoh...it's like RM8 you can go from one end to the other..haha..
i see..now why kl life is different.well, it is also a good way..hehez...
I'm suppose to pack, but i'm still here online and watching tv...iaks...
Today, i was suprise. cz i was watching anime [skul rumble 2] then you know when someone sign in in msn,they will pop up..haha..then all of sudden i see..it's my baby..i thought i was dreaming. after pas few days, all the misses and dreams all of sudden i just see him online, so i msg him..haha...and he replied..wohooo!!!!haha..i'm going crazy..and tomolo i will be seeing him...yay....
Tomorrow, is also the day i'm going, yue meng is going to fetch me back...aiks..my mom is gonne have arguements and fights with me. sometimes i just wonder why can't she let me go. ish ish ish...anywayz....
i miss jonathan lim!!!!!!!
i love you..hehez..
muakzzxx~
my new hair
hehez...wanted to try something new and different...
but just do hope my parents won't freak out and start scolding. haha...
Please leave some comment about it..=]
Thursday, 7 June 2007
omg...
omg...my unit..can actually die..haihz...i miss my baby's unit le..haihz..but i will be here for two more nite's oni. But still..haihz...actually, there was a manual gas can thingy to cook..but..ran out of gas today..so..what's left is a small hot plate which is like six inches only, ..haihz..but i oni need to eat for today and tomorow..hope that small mini hot plate can tahan till tomorrow..haha...
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