i'm really very sorry that i screwed it up. ^^..
but i promise i'll fix it soon. =]

hehez..
please don't get mad and i hope that you guys would like it.

last night, i went to samTet for the concert, but i left home at 5 and met with jenfie didi there. the poor kid needed to be on duty so i just accompany him la. Kinda pity to see that they weren't many people there though. haha. anyway the ticket was cute, so jF didi gave his ticket to me. haha. i kept it..^^.. bored le me.
now i'm at meru valley with my mom in pn lai sak's house. waiting for my dad who is playing golf. but lucky her house has wireless, so i'm like having excelltn signal..haha..^^..cool..=]..

later going swimming. and i bet she's gonna start nagging that i'm wearing a two-piece..=.=

.sitting here just doing nothing.

i sit here and play my guitar
singing out my heart
All i ever hoped
was to be able to be with you

i stand at the streets waiting for you
but you never came
and you never call
what has happen i asked you
but you just kept quite all the time

days to nights i always wonder
will you ever leave me
why you hurting me so bad
why'd i love you so much

why couldn't you see
the love that i have for you
why couldn't you see
the care i gave you
why couldn't you see
me there by you
standing there waiting for you

.i'm bored.

I just can't stand it when some people just has to nag about things. I mean they have to have a say about everything. and when i mean everything. i really literally mean EVERYTHING. It's like they can't shut up a while or smth like. they have to say SOMETHING about it. geez.

Today, i went to my driving school to book my test. Getting my driving test done on 22nd. [Thrusday]..T_____T..so friggin nervous. Somhow what-rather i know i can do it. But still...!!!!..who doesn't get nervous on a test? right?...oh god...someone help me...=.=''.. and the worst thing is annoying pollution noises are killling me and telling me i'll fail. What kind of people say they support you but they somehow keep telling you that you'll fail? it's like cursing you or smth like that.

The other thing which really ticks me off is that...SHE TOOK MY FRIGGIN LAPTOP CHARGER AWAY!!!!don't know why the hell would she even want to do that. she keeps on going..''PACK YOUR ROOM!!CLEAN YOUR RO!!''but the thing is..I"VE PACKED!! and it's like..every day i'm cleaning my room. sometimes i really wonder how only she would shut up. mostly like an empty room only she'll be satisfied la. STUPID....
i have my paint-brushes on my table. she ask me why am i not keeping it? it's like..geez..i'm doing a painting now..don't tell me i have to go to the friggin drawing to get out a tube of paint when i need it? stupid..never see my paint before don't ask me to do that. I paint my way and how i want it. It's messy but i love it. bcz it friggin makes me comfortable..
and when she found out. she's like..'Don't bullshit. how can it make y ou comfortable yo're just lazy'
yea..she's so god damn right that i'm lazy..that's why i'm so friggin lazy to layan her...=____=

Right now i'm just waiting for time to pass. going out to a concert tonight with jenfie didi, and then, tomorrow i'm going to another concert with my dad. so, waiting for time to pass only...

oh god..my mom was like right behind me. it's just so annoying..and she keeps on asking to see my blog..damn it la..hate it so much..=.=

*haihz*
now i've forgotten what i'm gonna write here or whatever..

anywayz, i got a new skin, and i hope you guys would like it..^^..please comment..=]

爱一个人,是多么的辛苦.

我发觉当我们真的找到真爱时,会有远离和距离的问题出现. 这是为什么呢? 难道爱是不能拥有吗? 我到现在还不知道什么是爱. 以前拥有的有失去了. 那现在我又有什么?

爱是什么?
被爱又是如何?
真爱,真的是找到吗?

Sick and tired

*haihz*..really. the only thing in my head is...when is sem3 coming. When is sem 3 coming. when is sem3 coming. I can't start dreaming far away cz it's too far and sem3 is the only reality thing which is really happening. haihz. bored bored and bored.

I hate my life. Thanks to some people who thinks they know-it-all it's ruined. aren't they happy..haha..

Noone to talk to, nowhere to go. Feel like shit. after what happen yesterday, i hate them more. Brings memories which i hate them even more.
Does anybody even care whether i am sick? how i am feeling? This stupid fucking stomach ache of mine has been with me for four fucking days. and they are like 'oh..i see'.. who givess a sht anyway? bad enough they don't care they don't let anyone care. even if there is someone who wants to care, they are like so friggin far away.

they should be happy i'm stuck with nowhere and noone.

i'm just so waiting for sem3..

Learning and i'm still

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangnin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

-avril-
things i'll never say

I really laughed non-stop

This is a very stupid video and i was laughing non-stop




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This is Funny

Take a breather.....Relax and read this....


THIS ONE BELOW WILL MAKE YOU SMILE AND BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY!!



EXCELLENT POEMS BY NOT SO FAMOUS POETS... FOUND ON TOILET DOORS AND WALLS..........
A BUDDING POET TRYING HIS BEST...

HERE I LIE IN STINKY VAPOR,
BECAUSE SOME BASTARD STOLE THE TOILET PAPER,
SHALL I LIE, OR SHALL I LINGER,
OR SHALL I BE FORCED TO USE MY FINGER.

BEFORE HE GRADUATED TO BE A POET, HE WROTE THIS...

HERE I SIT
BROKEN HEARTED
TRIED TO SHIT
BUT ONLY FARTED

SOMEONE WHO HAD A DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE WROTE,

YOU'RE LUCKY
YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE
I TRIED TO FART,
AND SHIT IN MY PANTS!

PERHAPS IT'S TRUE THAT PEOPLE FIND INSPIRATION IN TOILETS.

I CAME HERE
TO SHIT AND STINK,
BUT ALL I DO
IS SIT AND THINK.

THERE ARE ALSO PEOPLE WHO COME IN FOR A DIFFERENT PURPOSE...

SOME COME HERE TO SIT AND THINK,
SOME COME HERE TO SHIT AND STINK,
BUT I COME
HERE TO SCRATCH MY BALLS,
AND READ THE BULLSHIT ON THE WALL...

TOILETS WALLS ALSO DOUBLE AS JOB ADVERTISEMENT SPACE.......

(WRITTEN HIGH UPON THE WALL)
IF YOU CAN PISS ABOVE THIS LINE,
THE SINGAPORE FIRE DEPARTMENT WANTS YOU.

MINISTRY OF ENVIRONMENT ADVERTISEMENT.

WE AIM TO PLEASE!
YOU AIM TOO! PLEASE

ON THE INSIDE OF A TOILET DOOR:

PATRONS ARE REQUESTED TO REMAIN SEATED THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE
PERFORMANCE.

AND FINALLY, THIS SHOULD TEACH SOME A LESSON...
SIGN SEEN AT A RESTAURANT:

THE HANDS THAT CLEAN THESE TOILETS ALSO MAKE YOUR FOOD...
PLEASE AIM PROPERLY.

whatever

kinda think about it, three months holiday, oh shit man, what the heck am i going to do? it's just bored to sit around and do nothing. I'll just must well read some books again. Don't know why the heck i'm so bloody emo. [apologizes]

Went back to school today and the teacher were just so shock..=_________________=..gave the LUCT big book to them and they were like..OMG..and needed me to sign the book and then went to the ass. head and told her and i had to start talking to her. and all my juniors were like screaming when they saw me. wow..the days of high school. So way much different than right now..

Jin Moon picked me up from hosue today, went skul lunch and bla bla bla. [lazy to write]. nothing much special..

but i was lying on the bed drained and emotionless yesterday, thinking about life and love.

What's this thing call love? Do you know? Do i know? Do you think i know? When you're with someone, you'll say that's love. Love is blind and all that. But as sean say, the one you will be for life as your partner isn't your love. When you miss someone, you want to be with that someone because you are happy with him or her, is that love? like? or just a feeling for a good friend? This is the first time i dare say i'm single and i am not afraid to accept the fact that i'm single. because i have a bunch of friends who care for me. and for me. THat's LOVE.. so, guys out there? don't come telling me you love me and all that shit when you only search for me when there's someone, True love is not easy to be found..

[don't know what the heck i'm posting here]

Another Survey for me..=_=

1. How old will you be in five years?
* 23

2. Who did you spend at least two hours
with today?
* No one..T_T

3 . How much do you weigh?
* 47.=/

4 . What do you look forward to most in
the next 2 months?
* Carol coming back and my new laptop..^^

5 . What's the last movie you watched?
with who?
* Ghost Rider..alone..=[

6 . Who was the last person you called?
* My dad..

7 . Who was the last person who talked
on the phone with you?
* talk? As in long chat or just a while?

A while : my dad

Long Chat : edmond

8. What was the last text message you
received?
* Do you have Azmir contact number? By jang

9. Who was the last person to leave you
a voicemail?
* nobody

10. Do you prefer to call or text?
* depends..^^

11. What were you doing at 12am last
night?
* playing my guitar..^^

12. What is your current mood?
* sienz…

13. When is the last time you saw your
mom?
* yesterday?

14 . What color are your eyes?
* dark brown

1 5. What time did you wake up today?
* 1 o’clock in the afternoon.=]

16. What are you wearing right now?
* shorts and t-shirt

17. Do you find love or wait for
it?
* Erm..can I skip this question?

1 8. Where is your favorite place to
be?
* Don’t know.

19. Where is your least favorite place?
* Anywhere I hear lectures and naggings

20 . Where would you go if you could go
anywhere now?
* London..^^

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10
years?
* In London? I think..


22 . Paris Hilton or Nicole Richie?
* None

23. What do you fear the most?
* being alone

24. Who was the last person to send you
a message?
* Jang..=]

25. How big is your house?
* Don’t know?

26 . Do you sleep with or without
clothes on?
* Duh~ clothes la..

27 . What color are your bedsheets?
* Red

28. How many pillows do you sleep with?
* 5..i don’t know why..no wonder I have no space

2 9. What was the last thing you eat?
* Maggie mee

30. Are u bored right now?
* YES!!

31. What do u wish to do?
* To have my own band and album..^^

3 2. College or university?
* university

34 . Quiz or midterm?
* none!

35. Gold or Silver?
* silver

36 . Does anything hurt on your body
right now?
* yes

37. Opposite-sex that attracts you the
most by looks or special qualities?
* Er..heart..^^

3 8. Listening to any songs now?
* Yes

39. How long ago did you kiss someone?
* Don’t remember

40. Do u have a bf/gf?
* Sadly, Nope..

41. Hugs or kisses???
* both! Haha!~

42. Do you smoke a lot?
* No..

43. Do you know your blood type?
* nope

44. Do you dance?
* Totally..^^

45. Do you take daily medications?
* Why?

46. Have you ever drank alcohol?
* yes

47. What song is your ringtone?
* Er..Misery by Good Charlotte

48. Do you hang on the phone for a long
* ????

4 9. Do you own a gun?
* i wish.. Haha~

50 . Do you get nervous?
* Ofcourse

51 . What is your secret weapon to
flirt the opposite sex?
* I don’t know? To get him to remember you???

5 2. Current worry?
* When will holz end?

53. Who is your most silent friend?
* Silent friend? Beckham..haha

54. Is the person you have a crush on
older or younger than you?
* oLDer..

55. What food are you craving for?
* Ice-cold fruits..^^

Not well

i'm not feeling very well. hmph..=/..been quite emo recently back here, well only those who really know me would understand why. My stomach ain't giving me a good feeling too..T____T. plan on to go back school in the morning tomorrow, needed some help but turns out my bro would not even help me at all and annoys me back. He put his stinky feet infront of me, then almost whack me with his book. and i yelled at him. and guess what, my dad scolded me. He ask me not to be so sensitive. In my heart, i'm like, if you think i'm so fucking sensitive why don't you be aware of how youa re speaking to people? Then he was like..Noo, you have to change your sensitive attitude and start yelling and scolding me. Ok..right now, what the fuck is wrong with me? I now i'm extremly sensitive and you as a PARENT, shouldn't you be doing smth about it? Like making sure i don't get offended or sensitive rather then telling me not to be sensitive? I'm so fucking emo right now, and i'm so fucking PISSED!!!

Don't fucking ask me to calm down because i'm not a fucking robot and i can't fucking calm down after you fuckingly annoyd me and offended me with your fucking words and fucking action. AND I DON"T GIVE A FUCK HOW MANY FUCK I AM SAYING RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I AM FUCKING ANGRY!!!i'm sick and tired of all this shit.

And guess what, i love my friends who are a bunch of guys and not girls because they are great, and yea, IF you wish me to be a guy then i'll be it! at least, i won't have to be nagged that i don't eat well or drink well or shit well or whatever fuck well. I won't have to be lectured to get raped or what or mayb i won't even be accused of being a prostitude. YEa..i'm FUCKING SENSITIVE about it and you don't know it. And who re you suppose to be again?? NOBODY!!! Everybody can say 'hey, don't get mad. you know it's them, without them, there's no you'. YEa, THANKS alot!!! because i wouldn't know how i would have been to without you. I'm lucky to have a place to stay. yea... but you know? i didn't know that one day, you would tell us to do the garden, and you can have the guts to say that we are like staying in a hotel. yea, this is your roof. whatever fucking thing you say is your way. you can say i'm cold-hearted or whatever shit. because i don't give a damn anymore. THe more i care, the more it hurts. BECAUSE I"M FUCKING SENSITIVE!!!

ppl say 'why don't you stand up for yourself?' yea.. it's no point. it'll only make things worst and i'll get more and more annoyed. i must well jsut shut the fuck up and release it not on you. You guys think you are the know-it-all. Go ahead, no one is stopping you. I never said anything about helping me and yet you would bug your head in and annoy me. I HATE IT ok? i hate the way you bug into my life and ruin it. IF you want to ruin one life. RUin your own. and don't go ruining other people's life! cz i've had it and i've enough.

I seriously can't wait for the day i can get my own way. GEeZ...

Komenasai

i'm really very sorry to all my friends that this skin of mine has no comment..T_T..i'm so sorry...i don't know how to put them in..but pls write your comment on the chat box..ok?^^