.part of the family.

last night, i went out with my cousin Kim Soon, his wife and daughter..[i'm too lazy to explain about the relationship cz it's too complicated]^^

so, we went to puchong some part to eat..thai restaurant..it was nice..^^...lee ann is 7 already..i forgot to take her picture..she's so cute..^^..and she has her own ipod nano..the new one..X_X..i was like OMG!!!kim soon!!u bought her a ipod nano!!! then he was like...ling, she's the only child ma..i was like..i wanna be part of the family...T_T...

well, i was sorta part of the family that night..after dinner we went to tesco..^^..lee ann was pushing a small trolley, and i was pushing the big trolley. haha..then we went shopping..haha..my cousin was like chasing her all the place..and the wife was with me..lee ann was like so hyper...and then it just reminded me of someone..hahahaha....

then, lee ann started counting in the car..from 1 to 200...haha...she's SoooooOOOO cute....little babies and children are cute...[don't get the naughty wans..they are a pain in the a**]
haha....

.an early morning.

Be independent. B-E. independent..
ok..don't ask me what's with the cheer chant.
in my mind. i'm just debating whether to go out or not. If i go out, i'll be going out alone...
haihz...where is my girlfriend?? i'm just so sick and tired..[reli literally sick and tired too]
haha...what can i say???i'm weak???O_________o..

this is just so random..it's only 9 smth and i'm already awake. I was suppose to go out with jang, gerald and wiliam, but at the end, william din wanna go. and without him, jang and gerald don't know how to go there. so they decide not to go. So i also end up not going. Then i wass thinking, since i am already dress up. do i want to go anywhere? then the next question. where???with who??=____________=''''''

this is just so sad..

.Do i Have To Do Everything.

geez...yea...that's what's in my mind..do i reli have to do everything here??haihz...i'm just so tired of it..
but "keep it up" i always tell myself. but u know what breaks me down? After doing everything. Nobody realize, they either think it's just a easy work where u count 1,2,3 it's done. Or they just think that someone else will do it.
Yea, people ask me. why bother then? firstly, cz i care!!! and if i don't anything, it effects all of us here. and i would be to blame. why nag and say why bother but u can smile and say i'm always the best? this is the problem with people..do i have to do everything? do i even have teach u what u should do or say??geez..

.Just Ignore Me.

is there anything wrong being unhappy??

geez..sorry if u guys have to bear with it la. just ignore ma. cz no point explaning. i'm just lazy to explain. cz u won't understand. so why bother. i'm not in the mood means no mood la..mming zhi no mood somore wann ask..

.pray for dinner.

for tonight, i've decided to cook cabonara. for once. i just need to eat something i love and just hope that it comes out well..=]..^^

i'm just starving and i'm hungry...i boughr macoroni and cheese that day..and i forgot to bring it here...T______T'm trying to do my work here..
but my frigging laptop is not cooperating with me.
i'm just so glad that i don't have to entertaint this shit after this

.LEAVE ME ALONE.

today is just not my day. i'll just swear and just curse and sulk and be emo.

so just, try to bear with me.

i'm here in hostel, thnx to a fucking lecturer, i can't change my class. and this is already a problem. our class is different, we can't discuss it together. we end at a different time.

today is life drawing, i end at 4.30. y friends end like 12. u think they'll wait for 4 friggin hours??

then, assignments are just dead, i seriously do not know what to do. the stupid lecturer say use illustrator, i don't have, everyone say use photoshop also can. the problem is..I DON'T FUCKING KNOW HOW TO USE PHOTOSHOP TO DO THESE FUCKING THINGS!!!!!..

ok, then i ask my friends, they say ''shouldn't your lecturer teach u how to use it??'' i was like ''that fucker i don't think he knows..''
Then, ok,..let's wiggle with photoshop and i don't give a damn...then i realized, my fucking laptop is giving me so much fucking problem that i can't even use photoshop anymore.. so, tell me..what the fuck can i do????

thnx to my mom. i can't move, i have to stay in this crappy place. i don't know where it goes, i don't think it goes anywhere.. there's no public bus..NO wait..there is..one which goes to hell..where u got lost and can never come back. what the point of that bus then? geez...the cab's are so friggin expensive.
we are students...students who are living for a budget..those who eat maggie just to be able to spend better..
not to eat maggie just to pay tha cab's...
if i say, i pay 50 for food outside, or movie, or shirt, and i'll have to eat maggie for a week. i understand..
but it's not..i pay 50 for a cab..!!!!. who pays 50 for a cab? just to go somewhere? it's just insane..i'll never do that..it's just so nt worth it. i rather wait and change busses then to do smth like that..

i'm so restless and sick and tired of my life..

.Just so Unexpected.

wow..i was just shock and suprised.

i was half-asleep on the sofa in the living-room. and then i decided to take a shower and then i was in the toilet when my roomate came back. then i realized that i forgot to bring my towel in. so i went to my room to take it. when shirley all of the sudden asked me if i was sick.

i was like.O_____o?? how did she know??? well, how stupid of me to ask, it's not like it's not obvious that u are sick or not right? then she mentioned that i could've told her then she could on the fan instead of the air-con. she looked and sounded as if she felt bad that i ended up in the living room and i was sick. i could tell she felt bad, so i told her it's ok and i'm getting better now..^^

i was so shock and suprise. yea, i'm recovering now..hopefully will be able to get an exciting weekend.

.busy busy me.

ok, so here i am. another busy day. and recovering from the sick. went to see the doc today..alone..=____=..well, i had nothing to do, so i went. paid for the medi, waited for another 2 hours.

so here i'm back, there's so many things to do and plan. so i reli apologize deeply here if i'm missing anything. but pls do keep me updated and drop me a comment..^^..

sorry for the inconvinient that i have changed my blog linked, i din wan some other people i do not want them to know..^^

anyway, i gotta start my work. i'll try to post and keep things updated later on.=]

.being sick is not something everyone would want to be.

i could not sleep in my own room. i had to sleep on the sofa for 2 weeks in a row. I had to suffer through the uncomfort. woke up at 9 in the morning and my friend told me they have left, i couldn't get up and i realized that i still had my fever and my throat was killing me. So then, i din get out of my bed and went back to sleep.

so there i was, sweating and just flipping and turning thinking when would i be better. got up at noon and msg sayang that im not going to class, then i went back to sleep. finally, i got up three smth, drank some water and jsut lay at the sofa till 5 and i sat in front of my laptop and checked my friendster and chatting with bryan. then i lay back on the sofa..god..i just feel as if i dun have energy. then here i am, 6.15 posting this blog...

.still sick.

this is just so killing me. being sick is just so sick...O______o??[what am i saying???]

having high fever 5 in the morning? and then i couldn't get up. a bad flu and sore throat?? felt like i had no energy. i just wanted to faint and wake up and nothing happened.

Damn it, it's just so killing me. i can die. for two weeks and i was sick all the way, wtf??? one after another...these sickness, germs, bacteria loves me izit? and the viruses loves my laptop.
=____________=''''

listening to Jay Chow=]

.Je suis malade.

well, here i am. sick again. damn it la.. and i was just recovering from the previous one.
wow..
i had food poisoning last weekend. Then, the next few days i had infection for a week. then now, i'm recoveing, then i'm down with a flu and a fever...T________________T
why is this happening to me??*sigh*

my nose is like a leaking pipe. and my throat feels like flaming and stuck..and then fever just comes up and down.. and i feel hot and cold..
what is wrong with me???i'm so weak..
haihz....

shopping with dad

.shopping with dad.

today morning i woke up at 7..=_______=. i can't sleep late cz my mom would start nagging..i was like..geez..gimme a break..so got up..went to church..and then went to eat breakfast in town...=]..^^..took some picture..dadadadada..and then..my dad and i went to parade..
mom bought me this new pair of shoes..cz my older wan is not smth anyone would wanna wear out..so anywayz, dad bought me to pair of shorts too and ask me to keep the price from mom..haha..suprise my dad would say that.

I came back yesterday –home-.

Told my dad about my uncomfort and then we talked..lucky I got out of trouble. Anyway, feeling much better but my dad sez it’ll take a few days more.

Watched High School Musical 2 yesterday. Err…. I preferred the music in the first movie..The second one is just……NOT GOOD…o only like 2 songs..the duet by Troy[Zac Efron^^] and Gabriella [Vannesa Hudgen..=/]

She cut her hair in the second one..looked much better in long hair..

Anyway, my mom woke me up at like 8 smth in the morning wanting me to go out for breakfast with her and grandparents..So, then, I dragged myself out of bed and then went out. Now, I’m home waiting for my friends call…and waiting for the frigging internet to connect.

avril in my hands..

life drawing now... the title is...portrait..haha...^^.. that is avril lavigne..i took three hours to do it.. it's not really perfect right?? i'm not good in it...T_T why do i need this illustration???
my drawing...
the original one...

home

tomorrow morning i am going home..yea..
home..and tomorrow night i feast seafood and saturday i feast bbq...
and i'm getting my credit card..^^..my dad called my yesterday and told me that the card is ready..yes...i wan my pair of sketches..i wan my dress...

so, tomorrow i'm going to class..sorry sayang..cannot see u..muakkzx..but i'll always love u..^^

sometimes i reli wonder why i can't i drive? then at least i can start complain i want a car..T____T
anyway, matthew's birthday is coming up. guys? any idea what to give a 15 year old kid?haha..not kid..a teenager..

so i'm gotta pack..hmm...what to pack? i reli wonder..haha..i know i'll be bringing clothes to wash..haha..loads of them..i'm too lazy to wash it here..

i miss food.