some people are just so cold-hearted.

Sometimes you just can't believe it. don't you? Here i am seeing sean going thru everything, and he's releasing it all out. But here i am, just keeping it in my heart. i admire how sean work things..you go big bro!^^ we'll always support u..

some people are jsut so cold-hearted. They can say yes at the moment, leave u and say no the next minute. wow. it's just unbelieveable how people do things right? they are jsut so cold-hearted that they would only take what they want.

It hurts... why so? i tell myself. i'm fine.. But it hurts. I never want to see him, never want to even know he's next to me. cz i feel that people like that aren't deserve to be treated good. after all, even i did treat him good, he thinks i din. so what's the difference?only time will tell my ass..

i've made my mind up. i'm locking myself away from relationship. like sean said yesterday to me..

Thank you sean for making me realize so many things..and edmond too.. you guys are like my big bro..^^..thanks alot.=]

some pictures

here are some pictures..this is Jang and kLoong...can u tell who is who??^^
Now i think u can right??^^..kLoong is the one drawing and jang is the other one..this looks like two proffesional discussing on their work..haha...

and then i was at one side, i saw at kLoong's bag had a very cute shoe..^^..look..isn't it cute?hehez..if i could wear it..haha..i wonder who could??

because.....

yup..that's the size...so smal..^^...ain't it cute?..haha...

Another First Time

wow..Firstly, i gotta apologize for not blogging that often anymore it's because, i seldom go back my room... [it brings back unwanted memory]
So, i''ve been around.. Here and there... I was doing history of art that day, and i ended up sleeping over at kLoong's unit. b'cz i was using sean's laptop. It seems easier for me to get up anywhere but my own place. So, then, the next day also. And then i was around. I even fell- asleep at the living room two nights ago. This was b'cz i was waiting for sean to come back and i actually wanted to see edmond do his work. But i was too tired and i fell asleep.

Yesterday, we went to Sunway to sing-k at Red-Box.. first time for me. haha..anyway, after that when we went back was almost 12. and then we somemre watch this chinese movie which is the mask by chow sing chee.. and then after that, watched another comedy movie by him too. haha i almost fell asleep then. then after that kLoong wanted to sleep, so then at first sean thought of sending me back..[he always sayz it's not safe for a girl to walk back like that after 11] and that time was already 3.30.. Then sean pula say he's hungry..ok le then..so, we went to street mall to have a drink.. and we chatted alot..along with edmond too..

This brought me many thinking..

what is love? everybody is asking. well, sean and i are going throught the same thing. but i'm a girl and he's a guy..Right? sometimes being a girl is so trouble-some..=/
anyway, i made my mind to be who i am. Love is just a thing. When it's time, it'll come. At Least unlike some people who are damn perasan and think they know-it-all... i just hate him so much for all the things. and he has the guts to say i din put any effort..
anyway, my laptop is at kLoong's place..cz i'm doing research and everything. Just too lazy to bring everything back there.

i guess i gotta go start on my canvas colors d..^^.. hope it'll turn out well.=]

Gundam

ok.. i know i am not a gundam freak or anything. But then, i just fell in love with one..haha..it's call SD strike..it's the mini version i heard..^^..it's so cute....kawaiii....hehez... mayb i ask my brother to buy the modal for me..haha..then i can play..=]..i mean put as decoration also can la..haha..

anyway, i wanna show some images..but i can't..cz i'm not using my own laptop now..so the images are not here.. they are in my phone...They are just soooooo KAWAIIIIII.....

but of cz..ppl like kevTan, sean, edmond they all don't have to go and find out what's that cz they know what's it.. ok.. thanks to SEAN [paul] i fell in love with SD strike...haha..^^

working my *** off..

ok...so here i am.. Doing my history of art documentation..geez..only the biography of Leonardo he himself has already used up more than 20 pages..i just do hope that teacher won't deduct mine for being too long..haha..i mean the documentation.^^..

it's 4 smth plus in the morning..and there's a freaking mosquito here..omg..i can die..NOOOOO!!! i can't feeed it..i must kill it..KILLLL....buahahaha..ok..i hate them..i mean..who loves them? right? why are they even in this world? why can't god create smth much more human-loving if they are so important to the world..i mean..is sucking blood from the human-being THAT IMPORTANT???

if it is..then i am speechless...wanna take some rest..tomorrow another day..wish me luck on my life drawing finals..^^

listening to PeterPan-Mungkin Biar

对你有感觉

我曾深刻体会对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你给我安慰
看你失落的脸又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈
眼角的泪它给过谁
伤透了心也无所谓
我会愿意静静地陪在你身边
如果说爱已不可为
那我宁愿藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备跨越爱的界线
怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退被爱包围谁犯规都狼狈
谁能解围让一切完美
怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我拥抱瞬间不后悔这暧昧
星光唯美把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面

changed

ok..i've decided no t to do Herbie Fully Loaded because i realized that the car is hard to draw..buahaha..
So i decided to do...

Just My Luck..

Here is the image..
But of cz..i won't be drawing Chris Pine and Lindsay..I have to draw myself..So, for Chris Pine, i decided to chose kLoong..haha...b'cz among all my friends..the one who looks closest to Chris is kLoong..and he agreed, so ^^...i just wanna apologize to kLoong that if my drawing comes out not nice..komenasai..^^>..haha..i'm not a illustrator or a human figure drawer..haha...
I've started on my canvas d..drew the words and the buliding..the broken umbrella too..haha..i just can't draw human...T___________T

So, i just do hope things would work out well, i mean for this..
i'm going back kl at 4 in the afternoon later..Then will be doing my banel work..i think..anyway..good luck to all of my friends for the finals..^^

going back home

yea..i'm going home today..and i am coming back tomolo..this is because kLoong wants to go back to do smth..so i am also going back, mustwell, do some work there. peace, quite and space..haha..mayb at night i'll go get some acrylic paint i need..hope can print my pictures for the journal..at least do smth..
haha...
Just got back today..had life drawing test today..While i was in the lift. going down from the tenth floor, there was this Black guy in formal wearing and holding business and law book, he smiled and asked what's my name..then he asked if i was Japanese or Korean...^^..buahaha..at least he din ask if i was indonesian like Zali..haha...^^

So....yea. I got this new skin, and i'm still figuring how to put my image there.anyone have any idea???^^

New Skin

So, i got this new skin. Cz i got a little tired of the old one..
and since everything and all my profiles are being updated and changed due to some reason..i felt as though i needed to change my blog too..
wow..yea..
I dont know how..cz i did everything in one hour..internet is slow..and i'm dead tired..
i'm going to sleep..

Nitezzzz....

.bored.

i'm bored in my room. din go out. the last person i talked to was like james..if you don't include my room-mate..going home tomorrow. need to wash my clothes.. I wanna start my painting.well, i do hope i can draw it on the canvas on fri night..haha..

I'm so sleepy now..but i just still don't want to sleep..don't know why..mayb i will after i am done with this la..*yawn*..i'm tired..don't know what to write here..but still i wanna type..haha

.I took the test.

haha...i was damn wu liao..
so i took the test..
ok..
and i did it twice..
the first time.. i was a look-alike to Mai Kuraki, Ayumi Hamasaki, Lee Hyori, Oliver Newton, BOA, j.k rowling, jennifer love hewitt and kana..

the second time, i was a look-alike to Lee hyori, kana, Mai kuraki, Matsushima nanako, Bunko Kanazawa, Ami Suzuki, [one more i forget her name] Jennie finch, and lastly, Brenda song..haha..


ok..now u can see how boring i am..
it's bcz i'm waiting for dinner to be called..
it's 9.15..haha..

My Celebrity Look-alikes

http://www.myheritage.com

My Celebrity Look-alikes

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

ok..i've finally picked this to paint for my life drawing painting..
haha...
i'm going to be dead...haha

. Another day.

so, here i am. Another day.. I woke up late today, it was 11. i was like 'oh shit!' then i called sean..cz that pig is the one who is always late..haha... then he told me that he's not going. i was like..ok.. then he told me his class has test..i was like..huh? i though the test was like the week b4 raya holz? so, anyway, we hung up and then i called edmond to see where was he..but that fella..haihz..din get to talk to him properly..so then, i called edwin, at home..called bryan..at home..called jang..at home..i was like...what?? everyone at home? then i called kLoong..then he told me he's in campus..i was like..ok..where's edmond? then he told me our froup memebers are coloring...so i'm going there with jang later..haha..not sure..it's almsot 12..gonna finish this then i'll go over..

recently i just suck at taking pictures..cz i don't know how to take them ith short hair..haha...sometimes i do miss my long hair..haha...anyway, carol, hope u din get too shock with my hair-style..^^..ok..love ya..muakzx