lalalalala.;D

hehez.. so the list for what i want for my birthday is up. HAHAA

*hint to the boyfriend*

=p...

just joking la hubby.. i can dream also ma. right? ;D.. crazy siao to get those stuff man.. i just want stitches. that's all.;D

your opinions please. ;D

So, it's really fascinating to be doing assignments (yea. right.)

So, anyway,

Found these. HAHAAAA>.

Some tattoos can really turn out really fu

nny. HAHAA

And some can turn out to be QUITE creepy. there's worst i tell u..

and some TURN out to be REALLY HOTTT.. hahaaa..

maybe it's because megan fox is just beautiful by herself.

no wait.

she's HOT and sexy rather than beautiful HAHAA..

in my mind beautiful are all the gentle and NOT SO WILD type. hahahaaa

ok. this final picture may look a little as if it's painted.

But if you notice, she doesn't have a nipple. HAHA

Maybe she was doing a campaign or advert,

but it says that..

she's tattooed it like that, be'cz she really loved butterflies and it makes me feel like a child again

She had breast cancer. That's why she's so flat and no nipples.

She went for plastic surgery to make her skin look better and smoother and she got herself a tattoo.

Like Michael has said before, maybe it's a way for making herself feel secure. ;D

but anyway,,,

please comment on what you feel and think.;D. thanks.

what's this world coming to

I'm not sure if you could see this.. copy and paste it into a new tab or new window / browser

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1092711051435&ref=nf

i find it really sad and i also found a few acticle about it.

As told by Don Crow, 03/02/00...

The story I just heard has all the earmarks of an urban legend...

As it goes, a couple with their child were in a shop in Tijuana, Mexico. With their baby only a couple of feet from them, their attention was diverted just long enough for the baby to be stolen. They searched frantically for the baby and/or the kidnappers, but had no luck. Even with the aid of the local police they had to go home empty handed.

While crossing the border back into the U.S., The wife notices her child's car seat in a car next to them waiting to go through the border check. She gets out of the car and starts to make a scene, which does indeed attract the attention of the border police. The police detain the car in question, along with its occupants. The mother is able to identify the baby as her own that was stolen earlier.

However, the people who had her had killed and disemboweled her as a hiding place for smuggling drugs into the U.S.

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As told by Tony Graham, 04/10/00...

A woman and her 4 year old son are visiting a border town on the Mexican side of the Texas/Mexico border. As they are walking towards the border crossing to return to the U.S., a man runs up to her and takes her child. She immediately runs to the authorities and a search ensues.

The lady and the authorities begin walking among the cars looking for her son. The woman spots her child in a truck a couple of rows over. Her son is laying his head on the shoulders of man and appears to be sleeping.

As the authorities close in on the vehicle, the driver jumps out of line and makes a run for it. As they are driving off, the passenger opens his door and dumps the child out into the street. As the woman and the authorities reach the child they find, to their horror, that the child has not only been murdered but has been cut open and illegal drugs have been put inside his body.

It appears that the persons in the vehicle were drug smugglers and had decided to kidnap a child, kill them and place the drugs in the body. They would then hold the child as they approached the border and the border agents would think that the child was quietly sleeping on the shoulder of the passenger.

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As told by Carol Miller, 03/10/00...

I have heard this story twice...

A friend of the teller of the story went to the southwestern United States to visit family. While there, a neighbor stopped by to tell what happened to a friend of a friend, etc.

The family went to Mexico, just across the border, to shop, and lost track of their toddler who wandered off. The police told them to give them a picture of the child and they would circulate it, because somebody might try to bring that child back into the states in the car seat, and the driver would try to pass it off as his sleeping baby.

Sure enough, they found the baby, dead, with drugs sewn up in its body, strapped into the car seat. Supposedly this is happening all the time now.

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this is so sad.

missing you

i miss you.. i realize nothing can replace you in my heart.

No one has the big nose you have. and the big tummy of yours. your small little hands and cute little tail.

*sigh*

Listen to this

I've ALWAYS hear this song in uni.. ALL THE TIME!!! for the first time i thought it was a really lovely song. i remember i was really depressed and emo at that time, with family and lecturers and when they played this song i almost cried..

But soon, it just felt normal..till now i found it.. Then only i realize it's sung by limkokwing students and produced and recorded everything in limkokwing..hmm. not bad i'll say.

something to learn

It always sucks being in a group. it's not that i don't like it. but i always prefer individual groups. Cz you know what you're doing and you're never afraid that you'll be over doing or under-doing or crossing over what you're suppose to do.

So, yea.. and the other thing that sucks in a group assignment is that when you are new to everyone. The hardest part is ALWAYS passed to you. that's the worst. ugh.

So that's what happened to me right now. so frus.

Dedicated to hubby.

i love this song. ;DDD

Please comment

So, here would be a BIG help for my assignments.. i'm suppose to randomly ask questions to people and see what they think. So i'm gonna post the questions on my blog and PLEASE answer them . ;DDD.. thank u LOADDDSSS.. ;DD

1. what do you think about tattoos?

2. Will you get one done? If you will, what will it be and why?

3. Why do you think people get tattoos?

4. Would you be friendly with a person who has a full body tattoo?

5. Why people with tattoos always get the bad impression?

6. If you have a chance to change the people /public's mind about tattoo being bad. what would you?

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there's more. but these 6 Question are the most important one. ;D. ur feedback will be REALLY help me. thanks.

26082009

So i just finished my dinner. ;DDD (*picture above*). so yea... quite full. though i still have a fetish of munching on things.

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Today, i have Design Research class. and i'm doing on Tattoos. but still, i'm like half lost.. Assignments are pilling up and i feel so lost sometimes.

ugh.

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Anyway, got quite annoyed with some people. Sometimes it's really funny how some people can be so close minded or stereotype. Or like how they judge a book thru the cover and when you tell him or her she just gives you the look? oh my god. i seriously can't stand people like that.

ugh.. anyway, don't wanna talk about people like that ANYMORE.

sooo, this week hasn't been a good week. can't wait for hubby to come back up.

OMG. seriously it hasn't been my week. Things haven't been good for me.. But oh well, keep the positive thinking up and things will turn over soon. ;D.

Now, back to assignments. OMG. i have work for each subject and i've not started what's due TOMORROW!! and it's 11.30 at night right now. sobs.

sigh

It's not everyday things work out for you. And it's not every month things are fine for you. In life, there's always the ups and the downs.

But i just NEVER thought things would be so much worst.

i miss you and i'm sorry

I feel so guilty. I shouldn't have put you into the plastic bag. I should have left you in MY HANDBAG!! but i just wanted more space. I was selfish and stupid. i'm sorry.

and i know i sound like an idiot.

but i can't help it. T____T

Last picture taken in the car.

First picture taken after i got my mac with you

The last christmas ever with you.

The last webbis session with BFF showing you

First ever picture taken you as model for my assignment

Last picture taken while you were with piggy head

Last picture taken you being squashed. (i hope no one will squash you now)

Last decent picture with mooo mooo

Last picture of your portrait picture in landscape mode.

Last picture you were trying to squeeze out the window.

Last picture me and hubby played with you

The VERY VERY VERY LAST picture i took with you. T___T

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i'm so sorry... i shouldn't have been so selfish and stupid. If i could just have one more chance...

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6 years ago, Me and my sister, carol were going to KL on a family trip. Both of us decided to walk back to the hotel, (JW Marriot) first as we were quite tired. and we were passing by Bukit Bintang. When i saw memory lane having a fair.. (on the Bukit Bintang side walk itself), and i happen to see stitches sitting right at the top of the shelf.

I poked carol and just went over without saying or looking at her. She stopped and followed me.. I took it down from the shelf and i fell in love with it that instant. I looked at carol with my baby eyes. and she knew i wanted it. She looked at the price tag and asked if i really wanted it. I nodded and played with stitches and TOTALLY hugged it and gonna walk away with it as if it was mine. and Carol just went to the counter to pay for stitches..

that was how i got stitches. It has been 6 years. all of our memories together. how worn out you were and i still loved you. How hubby and i played with you and it became like a small family. and now you're gone, i bet he hates me more.

I've cried for the whole day and i know i sound like a baby. But i just can't help it, because i love you too much. I tried going to the mall looking for another teddy. But not ONE could replace you. i love you. and i hope, nobody will squash you or mistreat you anymore.

Now no one will dance the Hokey Pokey, or sing the Itsy bitsy Teeny Weeny, pr dance the teapot and climb the itsy bitsy spider.

i feel so depress and FULL of guilt.

I'm sorrry.

family. ;D

Remind me that there's someone out there loving me. caring for me.

22082009

I just learnt something. that is. Some things.. SOME... are better off left unsaid.

I'm home in ipoh. and i just got off the phone with hubby. and..

i hate this feeling right now. i hate this feeling here. The feeling of guilt. and the hate of myself.

i went over the board and forgot who i was. Who i am to be. and what i was doing. i screwed up my job and i just aimless not knowing when my class is. or whether it is cancelled or not.

Maybe you were always right. shouldn't be blaming everyone else for what's happening, but myself.

For example: i shouldn't be angry and pissed at the uni as it's my fault for staying so far and being so unconvinient.

It's my fault that i didn't organize things well and everything is so messed up.

It's my fault for not arranging my time properly until it's all screwed up and my time is so messed up.

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my heart wrench when i get lost in thought about how life would be next year. I just feel as though the whole world is coming down on me. Though i know our love will never fall even when hell freezes over. It all leaves to the hand of faith. But i know something, me leaving would be as if i'm walking away from this call our relationship. As we all know, you never believed in LDR's. and you never believe our words. Maybe as they always broke the promise. But i will keep to mine. To show you that in this very world, there is some girl existing that keeps her promise.

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Though i asked myself before, is it wrong for me to hate someone? Is it wrong to hate my family? was it my fault i lived in a fucked up family where all i always have to do is put a smile on my face, crack up stories and make them feel my life is oh-so-perfect?

i hate being alone

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so, i didn't see the bus this morning. so i took the cab to college.

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anyway, class was suppose to be from 9 to 5. BUT it ended at 10.45am. soooooo, i'm like sitting aimlessly here... waiting.... waiting

and still waiting

waiting again

and waiting.

and will wait more.

my dear thong su-xian to come. HAHAA.. hope she can find this useless uni.

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ok.. so this is what i wrote this morning

* This is killing me. As i stand here, i sudden realize how lonely it is. To be studying so far away. To be away from something call comfort. Maybe it might be different case for you as you've always had someone to love, somewhere to go. For me. it's only you. and now you're gone. leaving me to defend for myself alone.

i hate being alone. it's so damn inconvenient. like i'm using my laptop now. i can buy a drink. i can't go to the toilet. and the seats are filling up. later no space how?

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maybe it's fated. by god that i'm meant to be alone.