To my beloved sayang,

You should know who you are. ;D

i just happen to want to write this cz i miss you so much. How i wish if i have a door that opens straight to your closet door. Then we wouldn't have to worry about being so far apart. Where should i start?

It's been a while huh. And it just happen that when i need someone, you are always there for me. Whenever i need to hug for a cry or comfort, you will always come in open arms. Where can i ever find anyone just like you? Although we had fights and arguments back then, but we have alwyas forgive and forget.

Nobody can stand my clumsiness and stupidness but you.

It all started with the girl next door with the flowery ugly dress her mom picked for her.
Back then we were so small and young. Climbing over walls and walking over. Learning to roller balde together and end up walking the dogs in roller blades. And how the dogs start to run and we screamed stop!. And the time where we blow up those plastic air thingy pool and fill them with water and start jumping into it. with water pipes everywhere. And the whole backyard will be wet. And the time we wash and clean the dogs. but end up playing and spraying each other with water. It was you that release the DDR inside of us. The everyweekend sat night jj after church. The DDR again and again dancing afronava. Then it went on from basic to advance and to SSR mode. And how we dance and and did the slow mode at home and finally did the arcade mode in jj. Till the machine broke down.

From bandena's and pants. we went to skirts and skinnies. and soon, ten years has past.

I remember some days where i forgotten the dates, i would pick up and unknown call and i hear loud screams ''CHEONG Ai LING!!!!!!!!!''. then i would get so suprise and shock. i turn to see the date. ''OMG! XIANNNNNN!!!!!''.

The days we spend for christmas. we open up the present like a month before ad decided to buy more. and the layers of newspapers you use to wrap. And also those days where we would spend the whole night watching movie. but end up falling asleep halfway. Till it was time where we can drive. There was no more 'have to go home before 5''. There was no more ''mom?dad? can you fetch me?''. it was the. ok.grab keys ''MOM! I"M GOING OUT!!''. kind of situations already.

Then there's also times when we are sad and we need each other. and YOU were always there for me. you were the first to congratulate me. You were the first who ask if i were ok. You were the first who give me a hug.

i miss you so much. How i wish i could have a door to open to your closet and spend one day with you.
i love you,
sayang.