bored here

I... was bored....

So, i was looking thru my blog entries for the past year when i came across one entry which hubby secretly type it..

it was so cute.......

''haha.. hmmmm..don't know what to write in here..suddenly feel like want to become destroyer.hehuhuhaha...i don't know why my chéri always update her blog. why she have so many time, story and etc to write??? *sigh.. later i'm gonna to watch hell boy 2 with her...we wanted to watch this movie for so long already.FINALLY... really dunno what to write!!!!

nowadays i like to sing so much. i always sing in front of my sayang but when she heard my voice then she will laughed. so pai seh!! what song that she request i will try my best to fullfill her wish.

ohhh..ya..i felt very guilty cz my sayang grew fatter.I'm SORRY... All this is my FAULT..but in the other hand, this can shown that i am a GOOD BOYFRIEND..hahahaha!! means i sayang her alot alotzzzZZzzzZZz lor...

ohh....today my chéri has a very go performance. her guitar skill and singing skill improved..i give u a BIG HAND *clap*..!!!! soOOooOoOoOoO pontong steam..ppl happy happy kacau her blog suddenly she step on the wire then all sudden the laptop shut down. SILLY chéri...

je t'aime''

I miss those days, where hubby would come home with a smile on his face and saying out loud ''SAYANG!!! i'm home..''. but now? he's just quietly silently coming home.. and going straight to his laptop..

i always miss that post..

i cried today.. because of hubby ( i know he doesn't bother reading my post, so i'm not afraid to write it as he doesn't read it ). Sometimes i'm so confused and i feel so suffocated. When i was crying just now, i was thinking ''maybe it would be better if i didn't come back next week''. wouldn't it? Then hubby can have his own time. I don't have to bother him.. Sometimes i don't know what to do. Yes, i'm stupid and i'm worthless. I do things without going thru my mind and thinking about it. I have to PRETEND i'm smart so my parents would shut up about it. Everyone is asking me to shut up. Pretend not to see what i saw, and pretend not to hear what i heard. Does this mean i was really a bitchy girl who only knows how to blabber what i see and heard? But i was just telling the truth. And i'm being warned not to tell the truth. I'm confuse...Maybe from now on, i should keep things to myself. Because, i seriously don't know. Maybe me being here is not a good things, because both side knows i will tell. and you guys will ask me. I get scolded by B for telling C everything and i get scolded by A that i don't have to tell everything and i get scolded by C that i told B things??? Maybe, it would be better if i'm not involve in ANYTHING at all.

yea.. i'm not going to bother..anymore...

because. whatever..