tired

silently as i sit on my bed..
i started to think..
what is it deep inside me that is making me feel like this??

i feel so tired..
as if in this world everything is coming over me..
where does this world lead to?
where does it go?

in our journey of life..
what do we know about it?
how many choices do we have?
what roads are they left for us?

i never dare to show who's the real me..
but rite now i just feel like leaving..

i may smile and laugh..
but mayb jon was right..
i was just covering it up..

this..did you know?
what was going on?
who knew?
you never knew..
you even forbid me to do the stuff i liked..

i never showed that i cared cz all you did was just start nagging..
you mention that you got tired?
then?
sometime's i just feel like yelling at you..
just two words and three words..

shut up..

leave me alone...




but you never did..
right now..
you may think i am having great life?
yea..
i can if i wan to..

no..
wait..

i was...
until a friend had a convo with me..
she asked me..
why don't i just do whatever i like?
but no..
you never..


don't think that i forgot everysingle word you said..
b'cz i do..
you guys always make a promise and never kept it..
you may just say..''next time la..''
but how many next time have you said?
i know i sound like a lil kid..
just even a small promise makes a big effect right NOW..

i bet you don't know..
right?
b'cz you never knew..

how could you know?.


results are comin out soon and don't think i dunno what would happen..

i'm tired...