it sucks

Well, it does when people are back home and you're not.

.__.

well, i don't normally make a fuss of it. but i do have feelings and i feel so left out.

argh. what is wrong with me?

One down.

I finally finished my sociology Journal. *relief* it was faster than expected. :D

Let's see what work comes next?

* * * *

i'm little worried cz hubby is sick. how i wish the one sick is me. Not Him. it hurts so much everytime he coughs. Or sneeze or even the slightest sniffle. =/

Pray that hubby will get well soon.

The list

For Illustration
1. A3 size black and white full figure human
2. A3 size color full figure human
3. A3 size color landscape
4. A3 size color picture collage of 3 pictures (at least one typo, at least 1 human figure)

For Sociology
Journal which includes objective, class notes, research and everything required (i can't list them all :D)

For Design Studies
Magazine includes
1. Cover page
2. Content
3. Double Page Spread (at least 5 pictures)
and anything that which feels reluctant

For Computer Graphics
1. Booklet A5 (free topic)
8 pages ._.''II


there. i don't think i left any.
DID I????

argh

Have you ever come across a state that you're sooOOooooOOOo angry and you don't know if it's your fault?

._.

this is me NOW!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!

finally

i finally named them...
HUEY DUWEY LOUIE..hehez.
the perfecet three names for them. =]

.The loneliness that creeps inside me.

it is sunday midnightnow. *blink*blink*. and i'm alone.

I have been trying to clear up my laptop the whole day and realize. i need to get a hard disk and i want my kingston mini pendrive. xD.
anywayyyyy, Hubby's back in ipoh, and only coming back on Monday. Me here, struggling and dragging my laziness to do work.


.it seems to be raining.

i somehow feel cold. well, DUH~it's so high up here.

i've been watching the Miss Astro Chinese Pageant thingy. The winner isn't that pretty anyway. BLAH. i'm boreddddd..repainted the coating of my nails. might color it tomorrow. and i'm waiting for thrus to go back.
1. my bff xian is back.
2. i need my leopARD installation cd.
3. i need to buy stuff..

i'm somehow downloading Charmed to watch. HAHAA. 8 seasons. hmm. wonder when will i finish downloading it. Luckily internet isn't as crappy as the one i was using before.
I've also download Looney Tunes. *such a kid i am*
and the other series show i've been watching such as Gossip Girl, Prison Break, Heroes, and blah blah blah.

.i'm going to sleep.

webcam session with bff

hehez. aren't we just bored. xD    

i miss you. hahaha. xD

._.

waiting for hubby to come back.
4 hours d.
it's almost 3.am and i'm half dozing of to sleep.

hubby is going back ipoh tomorrow. no.
is today.

So, i don't think there's much time to spend with hubby.
recently hubby busy with friends.
Let him la.
he happy ma.

so i'm going to sleep now if not i worry more about my assignment. i will kantoi. xD

What to do

When your ipod hangs. xD

Step 1. Reset the iPod - Toggle the Hold switch on and off. (Slide it to Hold, then turn it off again.) Now press and hold the MENU and center button together for 10 seconds or until the Apple logo appears.

Step 2: If the above trick doesn't unlock the ipod, leave the device as such to drain the iPod battery. Once it discharges completely, reset and plug it to the computer for charging.

or you can just press the select and menu button.

that's it. =]

wow

I walked pass the computer lab and saw one of the classroom having the new imac.
One one classroom. HAHAA.
and the rest using emacs and pc's.
HAHAAA>
most probably they'll be leaving it for the finals students or the game deisng ones. HAHAA.

I was lining up in University Printing Hall (or so call room) where there was this guy who was right in front of me.

He as wearing a pink colar shirt. I'm not saying light pink as hubby would wear. And not Hot pink like marcus would wear. But it's BRIGHT PINK!!
like my mouse. BRIGHT PINK!. i almost went blind.
But oh well, if he was HOT with a body-fitting shape, i wouldn't give a damn.
But then, he was.....

huge.i would say? or more likely- NOT IN SHAPE.
well, i'm not saying not in shape like hubby. he's much ROUNDER and FLABBIEr compared to hubby.
And he doesn't fall in the category of FAT or Obese. he's just BIG.

.___. *blink*blink*.

so. that's not it.
He looks like a....awww..i don't know what's that word.
Oily face with pimples so he looks like a valcano there. Then his non-frame glasses like it's the IN-THING now.
curly messy hair.

O_o??

With bermuda shorts! i think he got it from tesco or some night market. HAHAA.
with yellow and orange flower flip-flops...


......_______....... *birds fly pass*

Everyone was staring at him.

Then when it was his turn, he voiced out to the person incharge of printing of what he wanted.

his designs were ALL pink and yellow and bright colors!!!!! well, i'm not suprise. designs are designs. So what's wrong with playing with colors? right?
=]

it was then when he started to take papers out for printing. they were al NEON bright colors...

omg. this guy likes bright colors so much. HAHAAA

then, his ringtone rang. no WAIT! more like message tone. which was birds cheaping, and he took his phone out.
it was PINK!!not just that! he had the fluffy thingy hanging on his phone..

HAHAA.

i'm sorry. i just find it hilarious.
i never though a guy would love pink. HAHA. BRIGHT PINK. it's like a real live legally blonde.

What is marketing?

1. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: 'I am very rich. Marry me!' - That's Direct Marketing'


2. You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says: 'He's very rich. 'Marry him.' -That's Advertising'


3. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day, you call and say: 'Hi, I'm very rich. 'Marry me - That's Telemarketing'


4. You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink, offer her a ride, you open the door (of the car) for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, and then say:'By the way, I'm rich. Will you 'Marry Me?' - That's Public Relations'


5. You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says:'You are very rich! 'Can you marry ! Me?' - That's Brand Recognition'


6. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: 'I am very rich. Marry me!' She gives you a nice hard slap on your face. - 'That's Customer Feedback'


7. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: 'I am very rich. Marry me!' And she introduces you to her husband. - 'That's demand and supply gap'


8. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say anything, another person come and tell her: 'I'm rich. Will you marry me?' and she goes with him - 'That's competition eating into your market share'


9. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say: 'I'm rich, Marry me!' your wife arrives. - 'That's restriction for entering new markets'

Look-Alike

Don't they just look alike..xD [not the girls. i was referring to the guy. xD]

HAHAA...

Let you have a clearer picture. xD

..

This is a really nice song. xD
i somehow feel so addicted to it...

i was suprise it was a malaysian song.xD

how i wish i could just

How i wish i could just

D.I.E

if i could.
*sigh*
maybe hubby was right after all.

i cant even finish a simple task and he could do it so well

Time flies

time has passes so fast i did not notice it has been ten months.
Hubby, how i appreciate the time with you.
i love you
i pray that you'll be with you everyday in my life.=]

*you're all i need*

Time has been passing by so fast it's finals already. T_T
i dead

models

SEARCHING FOR MODELS!!!
CALLING 1
calling 2
calling 3..


DAMNIT!!!where are my models. =/

i need to find models.

SHIRLEY!!T_T why you got such nice models one? sobs


help*squels* i need models who are willing to wear a bikini..xD

my new babies

I have three babies.
i wanna keep them.T__T
but my mom wouldn't let
but my dad has said for the time being i can keep them=]
but too bad i'm in kl
and i can't bring them.
DAMNIT!!!!
i do hope they won't be ignored or torture.
i need to buy them some things for comfort.

xD *the respeonsible of being a mother*


* * * * *

THE STORY OF HOW I GOT THEM



they was a stray cat that was around my house for a long time, we din bother to chase her away as it din bother us.
Now, she given birth and left them alone here. =/.
but thanks to her, i get to keep them for the time. They were meowing the WHOLE day and night for the mom to come back, but she din.
BABIES I'm HERE. xD
i'm still thinking names for them..

AND THEn, i saw a persian cat in the shop. i picked it up...OMG. i so wanna carry it away. T___T

anyway, i called the vet, some friends, and even the SPCA [society for the prevention of cruelty animals.]
I found out they are 3 and a half weeks. Eyes open, can walk, cam climb out of the box. Can't jump yet! ears flipped open and showed some teeth.
=]
Then, i bought cat food for them and so on.
I might bring them to the vet for check up, cz they're stray.
Hope my parents do approve.

*prays* and do pray hubby likes them too. =]

can't get in

it's 4am. and i can't study.
hubby not here.
T___T

hubby gonna scold cz i not studying
T__T
so i'll study bit more and sleep

i love you hubby.

Badminton

why am i not there? hmm..[i took the picture. xD]



Finally got the pictures from hillary. xD. i stole them. hehez.
Not much. But yea.

it was after badminton.=]

lol

Oh i'm sorry liying dear.
HAHAAA..
well, i was emo that time. xD

Guilt

Somehow, the guilt inside me is twirling up and down.
i feel so bad about it.
i wish i never said anything about it.
i wanna sit in a corner and cry
i don't know why you're so mad
and i'm sorry if i'm showing you any faces or anything that annoys you.

i wanna cry.
i'm so sorry.
i do apologize.
and hope for a forgiveness.

i'm sorry. i feel really bad.

movie

Today, hubby finally bring me watch movie. =] *smiles*

at mid valley. 

hehez. well, hubby mention that it was great, so we watched it. But too bad we had to sit the 3rd row from the front. But still, it's great. =]

Did not expect it to be so great. HAHAAAA

you should watch it. i don't waanna give any review about it. xD but it's really funny at some part. HAHAA..

You

When I need someone to believe in
I turn to you
And you never ever let me down
You always come through
And I just wanna thank you for
The way you make me make feel
Baby you get to my heart
The deepest part
I wanna be where ever you are
Only you know
Right where to go
Something that I never had
Is taking control, it’s your love
From the start
You get to my heart
If in time
You don’t know where to run to
Just come to me
I’ll be here for you with all my heart
Be all that you need
Cuz someone like you is
One in a milion, it’s true

freezing

i'm in class now.
and i'm FREEZING COLD!!!
i'm so dead tired. *sigh*.
and i'm hidin from her.
she has been like calling me for the WHOLE MORNING!!

Finished one assignment yesterday. and today i have TWO EXTRA....=_=..when does assignments stop pilling up?
*i hate marker rendering*
i'm HUNGRY!!!. hubby. where's my breakfast? xD

i need to buy like 18 marker pens. and one is like. RM6? Rm8?. i imagine i have to buy 18!! that's like bloody RM100 gone..whhoosh..*sigh*.

*opens wallet and flies are flying out*

No shopping this weekend. *sobs*. but i have a date with liying. T_T. let's get money from mom and dad. xD *e.v.i.l*.hehez..

Hmm. my friend just called me. to meet her at the cafeteria. But i'm SOOOOOooOOO afraid to see the other girl.T___T. she's gonna hate me. so guess i'm gonna go to my second class and start blogging there again. xD.

HUBBY I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

kill me please..

seriously, she's getting on my nerves!! and she has her bloody guts to talk to me as if it's my fault.
i didn't even promise her to do her work. and well, if she gave me the points and everything, i would consider helping her. But she gave me nothing but two words. ''nescafe and old town'' no. that's four words..

GEEZ!!!i have not even started mine yet. blame me for not having guts to say no to her. I'm DEAD tired. with a back ache. and i still need to do HER REPORT!!..

oh WHATTHEHELL.....

i'm too tired to even be pissed.

Think back time

Few days back i met back an old schoolmate of mine, a friend, a girl who i sit next to when we were primary school.
Thanks to FACEBOOK. we met back. She couldn't remember me at the beginning, so i had to mention my full name and nickname xD. then she remembered. HAHAA> i'm not suprised. HAHAAA..

The thing that made me think back time was when we started talking about how we are and how we were. and she could remember my song. =]. omg. 2006 graduation song, the one i spent time composing it. To think back. i miss how high school was. =/
HAHAAA..when we're in school we're so eager to get out. Now we're out. and somehow we miss it. Well, what do you expect after 13 years of memories being there? hmm...that's practically more than a decade of my life. WOW..


_______

we were like flowers,..
LALALALAAAA..
i can't remember the lyrics. XD

a little progression

So glad there's a little progression here.XD<

Aivan you need to help me. T___T. 
when you finish. then i finish one work.XD
HAHAAA.
then now, my report i've started on the product d.
a little research. it's 2 smth in the morning. thinking wheather to continue or to sleep.XD


hubby's asleep.


disturb him first. hehez

=_=ZzzZZ

i feel so tired and lazy. i like have..hmmm....2 design studies assignment. 2 communication studies assignment. 1 report to finish up (which i have not started anything yet!) and 2 photography studies work.

OMG!! just listing them out makes me want to cry. and i'm so tired and lazy and i don't have the mood to do it.

-let me cry-

* * * * *

it feels like i'm having a fever, i always do. HAHAAAA> or maybe because of all this confusion and boredness that brings me to this state. i wish i could stand up high in the mountain and hope everything will be GONE!!!!!

someone help me.

Kids are fast learner.XD

TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America ..
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.
____________________________________

TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
__________________________________________
TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it..
________________________________ ____________
TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
__________________________________

TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
__________________________________________
TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
_______________________________________

TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right...... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
______________ ___________________
TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
______________________________________

TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
______________________________

TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.
___________________________________
TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

Random

SEE how thin it is..XD
HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA
it's SOOoooOOOOO..
hahaha
ok.
Not to be obsesive.
But the price really put me down.

Touchscreen

Touchscreen is the thing right now.XD
This is the Nokia First Touchscreen phone release.
The Nokia 5800 Xpress music, which is also known as 'The Tube'
Sadly, it comes with a 3.2 megapixel camera with No wi-fi.


then, the Samsung f490.
which i wanted to get but decided NOT To.
i prefer to stick with NOKIA. XD

The iphone. HAHAHAA>.
random put it on here.

Lastly, i still prefer this. The Nokia N98. XD
Which has wifi.and 7.2megapixel with 5 times zoom.
hehez..I'm still waiting for it to come out.

i'm gonna sell my k750i.
Say NO to sony erricson.
then, hubby came back with a 5310 xpress music.
It's SOOOOooooOOOO thin,
i also wish i want one.XD
but the price is about RM900. So, i guess have to wait la.
=]

*smile*

report

can't even start on my report.
=/

Don't even know what to do and what topic or subject even.
*sigh*.
How am i going to finish it.
i'm so lazy.

hubby's gonna scold. =/

k-boxing

today, went k-boxing with hubby and his friends. XD

i got no pictures.
HHHAAAA..
so can't update on them unless i steal them from others. HAHAHAAA..


*random*

T___T

i hate being sick.

T___T

well, half sick
and it's still sick..

XD

i bought this top in FOS. XD. they have FOS in ipoh. parade.
but it would be better if it were in jj. Take down the reject shop and replace it with FOS. then more people will be there.
This shirt says ''WARNING, I HAVE AN ATTITUDE AND I KNOW HOW TO USE IT"..XD


Another top i bought from FOS the next day. HAHAHAAA..XD. but too bad they do not have more of it. if not i would have bought them all.XD
i bought that shorts too. the blue one. i bought a black one too. but i din take any pictures of that.

This top says " Promises, Don't make them if you can't meet them''


* * * * *

Hubby came back from Singapore. XD.
he went shopping too.
hehez. and he bought....

THIS TOP!!...XD
i love it.
hehez...
This Top says "IN DREAM AND IN LOVE, THERE IS NO IMPOSSIBLE"

Then, there isn't also the next top.XD
which says " LOVE IS THE GIFT FOR YOU''

* * * *
THEN,
hubby bought me a bag..XD
weeEEEEeee..XD
i've been searching for a bag like ...
sooooOOOO loooOOOOong and never came across a nice one.
and hubby came back with this.=]
i love it.

hehez. i din expect hubby to buy anything.
but then when hubby came back, he drag me into the room, and started showing me what he bought.
i'm gonna post those later. XD.
and then all sudden he started pulling out these shirts and bags.
i thought it was his sisters. But no.
it was mine.XD

i feel so bad.
i need to go shoopping and buy hubby things..XD

so long

I've not been updating for few days about so many things.XD

First of all, HUBBY"S BACK!!!
weeee..
and i'm so happy.
somehow,
i'm thrilled.
cz hubby apologize for being cold to me for the past two weeks.
at least he realize.
but all well's.

hubby i love you.
muakzx

i love you

after all the tears and sorrow.
a single smile of yours wash everything away

Tell me,
how strong your love is.

missing you

I'm missing you dearly. So much i wish i could hug you.
So much i wish you would be here.
The hour seems long and the days seems to be passing by forever.

But maybe this would be the time for us to start giving each other time. Start missing each other. Start realizing how important we are to each other.

i love you

memories again

i was packing my room. when i found these..XD

it's me. XD. i don't remember how old i am. my dad said i was about 1 or 2.
i'm so fat. T___T

This is when i was even younger. at my grandma's house.
i'm so chubby. T____T

Me and my grandma here. =]

Spot me here. HAHAHAAA....

This is NOT ME!!...XD

my brother.

haha..look how comfortable he is.and those cars. my goodness..HAHAHAAA

Shopping Spreee...XD

Well, i went shopping today..
HAHAHAAA..
let's see..
i bought Three tops. Two shorts. one flip-flop. and One vest. XD..

haha. that's for clothing.
Then, i also bought one hair clip and some other accessories.. i almost bought my laptop a speaker.XD but it wasn't worth it. so i din. hmm..

i wonder what is hubby doing. miss him dearly.Wondered if he missed me. No sound from him at all.

Guess gonna start packing my stuff. My room's a mess. all the papers and stuff. my mom dump into my room. haha. so i'm gonna dump them into my brothers room or the rubbish bin.XD

Haven't bath. hehez. hubby sure say me smelly smelly. XD

so i'm gonna bath now. hehez

i miss you

Where'd you go..
i missed you so.
Seems like it's been forever.
That you've been gone.
Please come back 'to me'...

Bloated

i feel so bloated.
FUCKING uncomfortable.
i wanna cry
i wanna puke.
i wanna feel good.

T____T

The moment

That moment.
i felt indescribable.
I've never seen you like this before.
As the wind rush through my face, and you held me in you.
The feeling, the moment.
i wish you would never let go.

Hubby going to singapore tomorrow morning. and will only be seeing him on monday.
._. somehow, i missed him already.
and i wonder will he.

sisters

hmm..
today. somehow i missed carol.
The times i tag her along during her outings with her friends or her boyfriend.
When i saw them, reminded us.
HAHAAAA..the times where she would go to forever 21, MNG, topshop to look at clothes and i would go to BODYGLOVE,NIKE,ADIDAS those. hahaha...my god, those days. and she would buy a few clothes for herself and one clothing for me. HAHAAAA...

Then i remembered how tini tiny small size she is and how humongous i look standing next to her. Keeping quiet. just 'tagging' along. And she'll often talk to me. and hold my hands, making sure i'm there. HAHAHAHAAA>..

then there were also the time where i fell sick and she took care of me.*tears*.

i miss her already...

How i LOVE you

That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
You upset me boy, then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did
Well I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

0156

It's almost 2. and i'm struggling with work.
i have droppy eyes and i'm dead tired.

I guess, i have to call it a night/
i can't wait anymore.
i wish i could

sorry.

Touch

i read this from an article

Touch is good for love. Touch is good for you. From holding hands to quick cuddles to warm embraces, the word must go out strong and clear : touch me.
But you don't want just anyone to touch you. I'm talking about receiving the kind of touch that you need and want.
I once saw a film in which two lovers secretly held hands under the table. I found the moment that their finger entwined much more erotic than seeing lovers jump into bed with each other. That's the thing about touch: it can be sensual and sexy or comforting, reassuring, affirming.
True lovers don't feel the need to always talk to each other. They can be equaliy happy just holding hands or stroking each other. Touch says more than words. Touch is healing, health-giving. Touch is instant communication. Touch is pure magic.


after reading this. i felt so empty. like i lack of it. From hubby. I wish hubby would understand, but then what would the point be. He'll most probably say i'm doing something stupid or this is just something worthless. I remember how i wish he would hug me and tell me everything's ok when i cried. How i wish he would hold me hands when i'm lost, or even feeling sad. Or hug me when i'm cold.

But, instead, i was said stupid and being worthless and said i was weak and everything was my fault. I guess i would have to bear with it and be stronger.
Nothing is ever perfect in this world. To get something, you need to sacrifice another. This happens in everyway. But deep down, i know hubby loves me. I know it's not enought to last us. But it's enough to know he loves me now.

Hubby, i love you. i'm sorry if i disappointed you or made you angry. i didn't mean it. Sorry for being so stupid. and sorry for not being your prefect one.

Realize

I sudden realize.
You do not bring me out that often.
Not that you don't!
Just not that often.
Well, i do not mind you having your guys night out and i'll be nothing but a troublesome to you
But you use to ask me if i want to tag along.
Now you don't even ask.
Moreover, You grabs your keys and i stare at you.
Then only you speak.
I sometimes wonder,
if i continue doing what i was,
would you tell me?

I am not trying to be controlling or anything.
But sometimes,
i feel so akward
and left out.
At that moment,
i wish,
...
i could hide.

Sometimes, it feels like you're walking faster than me.
Further than me.
But you always turn around.
And smile to me.
That charm,
a smile of a second of yours takes a years of sadness away from me.

How silly i am to fall deeply in love with you.
Sacrifice i made for you i wonder if you realize.

If it wasn't for you. I wouldn't stay longer.
Even right now,
i do not wish to leave,
but i know if i don't i'll regret.
But if i do.
i'm afraid i WILL regret.

I feel insecure.
i feel scared
i feel lost.
i feel silly
i feel stupid.
i feel i hate myself.