hmmm. where do i start?

Sem hs finally started and work has been given,exciting it is in a way, but then, i'll be busy busy busy.
Brainstorming ytd, and suppose to be doing research now, but i don't have microsoft office. can you actually imagine that? ZOMG...=______=..
so here i am now, and then i'm just too lazy and started bloggin again..
haha..XDD

here i am at startbucks. Was actually using startbucks wifi before everyone came. Right now, it's like, every table has a person using laptops. Imagine how slow the connection is. So i ended up using 'Michelangelo's' wifi [it's just next door]..haha...

Currently debating whether which company should i start working on.

Sometimes it just really disappoints you.

NOmatter how Much you TRY..

NOmatter how much you ChAnGE..

You NeVer gain the respect you ever deserve.

I've Tolerated and tried to understand.

But does She?

I've got feELings too.

and it's not that just telling me that i know she's like that

so i have to bear with her.

I'm soft-hearted that's why i care.

I care so much that it hurts

I get so pissed off inside without showing it out.

because sometimes i wonder,

does anyone understand me??

ALL i wanted was to be loved,

and to be respect.

DON't tell me that i don't deserve to be respected because I'm not good enought.

Everybody tells me i'm changing bit by bit,

They are seEing the difference,

so why can't you.

omg..it's so unbelievable that time flies..

it's gonna be march soon..

and someone's birthday is coming,..XDD

and then xian is coming back..=]

yipeee...can't wait..

and zomg..

sem starts...excited.. but bit bored..

still can't imagine for the past almost month..

've been spending days with him..

and to realize,


i love him deeper everyday..

alexis dear, why do you sound so love-sick?

haha..
XDDD

一天比一天的日子过得真快。不只不觉也到了一个月的时间。在这一个月里面的感情变了很多。再多几个星期就来了，真的好希望能够是一个你永远都会记得的第一次。认识到你我真的好开心，也不知道你会不会去读我写的这些。如果你是有心的，我回好开心。和你相处了之后，让我发觉世界上还有很多东西让我去学习，而且有你的存在带领我，教导我，我好开心。虽然说是等你，但是我好开心我能在你身边。
爱是如何？爱是能看见吗？爱有是哪儿来的？
我爱你，是真的。你有的过去和我的过去是不一样。你是第一位能让我开心，让我学习好多东西。没一次，我伤心，不开心的时候，你都会在我身边。别人也可以在我身边，但是他们给不到你的温柔以及笑容。
你比别人不同，你好特别，没个人都会有优点和缺点，但我相信在时间以内问题可以解决。我也不是一个十全十美的女孩。我只不过是一个深深的爱上了你的以为普通女生。
你可以说别人靓仔帅哥，你可以说他们有钱人好，但是你无论怎么说几百次也好，你也不能说服我你所说的，因为在我所知，你是帅哥。我丛不觉得我需要那一位，有钱地位来做我心目中的百马王子，因为你就是我的百马王子。
等你是我愿意和唯一的选者，如果在这时期里，有别的男生，就当他们倒霉来错时间，因为我的心里，只有你一位。

整一个星期和你一起，我好开心，因为有你的存在，在我身边，这段时间让我更觉得我等你，是值得的。因为，我真的爱上了你。

再想起来，你着星期尾后我又有得见你。但是有怕我什么读做不到但是只是带麻烦来就不好。

一时，真的很难相信一些东西, 爱真的在你身边吗？你真的爱我吗？我一时有想过， 我到底真的不介意你不是全心的爱我吗？但是，想起来，你能付出一些我已经够满足了。
因为我是爱你，才回让我性到那么多的东西。你让我改变了很多。

It’s just hilarious to wake up in the morning and your mom comes into the room. Sees your poster on the wall and mistaken it for the dream guy of yours…haha…

I have two jay chow picture on my room wall. And my mom told me today that she thinks sayang looks like jay chow.haha… I was like..NO…. I never even had athat thought. Then my mom was like ‘Look! The hair style is the same. And the body also. But your guy is taller la’. I was like…

O__________________o

Speechless. Then she said that the first time when she saw him, she couldn’t get his mind of him , cz she said some how and some where, it’s like she has seen him on tv. And now she remembers it’s jay chow.. OMG…I cannot believe my mom thinks sayang looks like jay chow. Zomg..i still cannot believe it. Haha.. my mom was like. At least you have taste and he’s not bad-looking and lucky he doesn’t rap and mumble like jay chow [my mom thinks jay mumbles and doesn’t sing]..haha…

Sayang is better than Jay la..haha..of cz! It’s my sayang. XDD

I've just came home. had a dinner, it was my cuzins 2nd childs full moon. that fragile little baby..zomg..just can't believe it. haha..

this is a picture form one of the cny nights-outing after clubbing...

there's just so many of them i can't name them..haha..cass's frenz..stold the pic from suyin..XDD

this year cny has been diff than last. i was with xian the last and sem started. this year, it was b4 sem starts. and i had sayang bringing me around. Frankly, it has been my first going out so many nights and places and even though i don't know them.. i see things..and i'm sorry sayang for sometimes making you frustrated...sowee..

Tuning: Standard EADGBe

Key: A

Chords:
A - x07650
A/G# - xx6650
D9 - xx4230
D8 - xx023x or x5775
Bm - x24432
A/C# - x47650 or x42220
C#m - x46654
DM7 - xx0222 or x57670
E8 - x7799x

Intro: wake up mean..
A-A/G#-D-A (x2)


Verse 1:
A A/G#
I've been awake for a while now
D9 A
you've got me feeling like a child now
A A/G#
cause every time i see your bubbly face
D9 A
I get the tinglies in a silly place


Chorus 1:
A
It starts in my toes
A/G#
makes me crinkle my nose
D9 A
where ever it goes i always know
A
that you make me smile
A/G#
please stay for a while now
D9
just take your time
A
where ever you go


Verse 2:
A A/G#
The rain is falling on my window pane
D9 A
We are hiding in a sacred place
A A/G#
Undercover staying driving word
D9 A
You give me feelings that I adore


(Repeat Chorus 1)


Bridge:
C#m DM7
What am i gonna say
E8 Bm A/C#
when you make me feel this way
D9(hold)
I just hmmm


(Repeat Chorus 1)


Interlude: Dadadada...
A-A/G#-D-A (x2)


Verse 3:
A A/G#
I've been awake for a while now
D9 A
you've got me feelin like a child now
A A/G#
cause every time you hold me in your arms
D9 A
I'm comfortable enough to feel you once


Chorus 2:
A
It starts in my soul
A/G#
and I'm losing control
D9 A
when you kissed my nose, the feeling shows
A
that you make me smile baby
A/G#
just take your time now
D9 A
more than it's time


Outro: Cool plucking x3
A A/G# D9 A
e|---------9--------|---------9-------|---------7-------|---------5-------|
B|-----------10-----|-----------9-----|-----------7-----|-----------5-----|
G|-----6--------6---|-----9-------9---|-----7-------7---|-----6-------6---|
D|---7---7--------7-|-6-7---7-------6-|---7---7-------7-|---7---7-------7-|
A|-0----------------|-----------------|-5---------------|-0---------------|
E|------------------|-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|

A A/G# D9 A
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go
(Repeat)
A A/G# D9 A
oh wherever you go, always I know
A A/G# D9 A(hold)
cause you make me smile just for a while

i dunno what i'm feeling inside.
emo?
sad?
hurt?

i know, i feel isolated in this world...
where am i?
i do not know where i stand.
i do not see me in a mirror.
it hurts so bad deep inside,
that i sometimes wonder,
should i be here?

when you wander of with her,
my heart felt angry.
this jealousy is what i felt,
i told myself there's nothing going on
but thoughts and wonders kept coming in.
I felt lonely,
i ask myself,
should i be there?
should even be existing?
how important i am to you?

i love you and that's all i know,
silently being behind you,
and sometimes wondering,
do you see me there.

I don't know what to do.
all i know
everyday
i'm falling deeper and deeper for you...

i love this song
it's call realize by colbie caillat

C
Take time to realize,
G Am F
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
C
Take time to realize,
G
That I am on your side
Am F
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

C G
But I can't spell it out for you,
G Am
No it's never gonna be that simple
Am G
No I cant spell it out for you

C G
If you just realize what I just realized,
Am
Then we'd be perfect for each other
F
And will never find another
C G
Just realized what I just realized
Am
We'd never have to wonder if
F
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

C
It's not always the same
G
No it's never the same
Am F
If you don't feel it to.
C
If you meet me half way
G
If you would meet me half way.
Am F
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

C G
Missed out on each other now
Am F
Missed out on each other now

*sigh[part of lyrics to say my heart out]

where do i stand?
where am i in your heart?
everyday,
when i open my eyes,
i hope to see your face,
your charm smile brings a smile to my face.

Never knew that i could feel like this,
like i've never seen the sky before.
only you can give me the happiness i have.
everything is about you,
when i'm with you
i can't see anything
Do you know you're all i think about at night?

Want to vanish inside your kiss,
everyday i love you more and more.
I don't know
what she does to make you smile
But as long as you love me
That's all i really care

you're my all
my valentine.
I love you and just that
You're on my heart just like a tatoo
i'll always love you

it's valentines...yup..it is..
i'm in kl..hmm...registration is next week but the friggin class starts on the 25th..and sayang's exams finishes taht atime..such screwed time..ugh..
shud have bought my guitar up..wanna learn a few songs..the temptation..but sometimes i do think alot bout what sayang said..
but...i think he's wrong.. when i play guitar i don't go into daze and forget everything..=/...i feel sad that you said that..it's not fair..T_T..you make me feel scared to talk to you bout guitars anymore. You make me feel scared to do alot of things.

but i have so many things to say out. everything in this little fragile heart of mine. I don't care if you like to listen to it or not, if you don't like anything bout me, then why bother waste time taling bout me and wasting your own energy. well, that's your problem anyway,because i don't care if you say i'm a slut or a bitch or anything that is coming out from your mouth.
Just because i am with the one i love, doesn't mean i'n a slut right? geez, what genaration are you in? A relationship of two, only the two of them knows the truth. For the others, it's all rumors and fake and whatever you say is just shit.


*sigh

hmm...going to genting tomorrow, then going to kl on friday to meet up with aunty and grandparents, then on saturday we going back to ipoh, then on sunday i'm going back to kl..X_X...
ZOMG..i just can't stop thinking bout him..

i miss you and i love you

Being with you is all I wanna do
Your sweet smile is what I need to see
Please, let me be the one for u
don't leave me, stay near

Let us be together
let's make this last forever
don't stop, oh never
babyboy don't leave me, ever

Thank you for all your time
and for only being mine
No words can tell the way u make me feel
so come on, don't leave me, help me heal

In my life is where I need you
right here, next to me
your hugs and kisses, all of you
please don't leave me babyboy, stay with me

I love you, I really do
and I'll always be here for you
'cause trust me, you're what I need
so never leave me, stay here

stay here near me,b'side me 4ever
4ever i'll luv u
wilin 2 b wit u
babyboy luv u
just for you.and i love you..you know who you are!!

There's just so many things going around and happening around here.it's just unbelieveable to even describe every single piece of my heart now.I feel like writing a song out,and sing it out, but i know, i'm not good at words,and i'm not good at tunes.So i pick a song,and sing it out for you.But sometimes,i really wonder,would you like it?

I really miss you, and missing you so much has made me become someone who wants to be with you more,is that your intention? or maybe not i know i have faults,and i am trying my best to change it, it takes time, so plz b'liv me that i'm changing, for a being a better person. I come to realize that i can't keep secret's from you for a long time, be'cz my facial expression would betray me sooner or later, and sometimes, i just feel likt telling you. And therefore, there's no secret between you and me. But somethings are left unsaid, and i do am afraid you get the wrong idea and signals from me.
For example, how do i feel towards you. what are my toughts. what are my wonders. have you ever wonder? have you ever spend time sitting down thinking of me and just only me.

Today, i missed you alot, especially the time where we weren't talking, i miss having you around, i miss seeing your smile. Your wink and smile are like heaven to me, everytime you stare into my eye, my heart is taken by you, and i just can't seem to control myself, i wish i could kiss you, your tender soft kiss yet so warm, the love you gave me, is something i can never imagine. But sometimes, they are sad times,especially when she comes into the picture, but if logically, it's my fault,for coming into the picture.But i really want to and i know i'm not regretting for coming into the picture. Your options and choices are wide open i know, but i'll wait, and i know on the way in this journey, i'll get experience i can never get anywhere elser.
I love you and that's all that matters. I knoow being like this i'm being selfish,
but i that all i'll do. loving you and being selfish.