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Hubby and i talked today. It sudden made me realize WHAT i REALLY want this year. But somehow, i don't want to put my hopes up high because, With the higher hopes, will ALWAYS bring bigger disappointment.

For this year's birthday. my wish is ''to know how much you love me''. Or much i mean to you. and how much effort it's worth..

Hubby did mention that it's bcz i'm leaving and he doesn't want to make it such a big thing and i''ll end up NOT wanting to leave.

But the thing is. I wish he'll tell me. So i'll be more secure. and i want to know how it is.

*ugh*. like tiger had said.. why does he have to be so stubborn and why does he have to be someone that doesn't want to show his feelings?