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During the first week i came home after sem started. hubby was at my house.

HAHAHAHAAAA

this is what he does when he's bored and trying to cheer me up. HAHAHAA

I know!! my boyfriend may seem weird to you or smth like that.

but i find it cute. hmph! he's MY boyfriend anyway.

so it's the matter of how i see him .:DD

So i promised hillary i'll update more. HAHAAA>. don't want her to worry about me. ;DDD

will update pictures next so that my blog won't look so shitty and dead.

i'm still alive!

HAHAHAAA...

i'm so sorry about the 'lefted out' blog. >.<

the past week has been a real hectic one for me. ;DDD

Firstly, i'll start off with i was sick (you guys should know already). fever, flu, cough and so on. But i'm fine now. no more fever, no more flu, JUST the cough.

Then, the next thing would be i started my job at starbucks. HAHAHA.. Got to know a little slightly more about starbucks... i have been working for 3 days already. and i just started learning the Frappucino's. BUT, still not use to it yet,. haven't study or memorize anything. T_______T

Third, CASSON LIEW IS IN SINGAPORE!!!! T______T. lonely, i'm Miss lonely, i have nobody, all my own... ohhhhh~

Forth, I"M HUNGRY RIGH NOW!!!!!!!!

Fifth, uni sucks.... it's the second week and the lady i'm suppose to register with is ON MC!!!! i'm suppose to go straight to a class.. on the way met a new friend 'Rena'. She's from Arabia.. quite pretty i'll say. ;D. and i find it really hilarious when she speaks Arabic very fast especially when she's nervous or in a hurry, and then she'll turn to me saying ''correct?''.. HAHAA.. then i'll give her the blank ''english please'' face. Then she starts laughing and apologizing. HAHAHAHAA.. so cute..

Sixth, i'm late for class again. but waiting for sean. FUCK hungry. T_____T

seventh, i'm hungry

eigth, i'm hungry

ninth, i'm STILL hungry.

tenth... i'm so fat already..

so yup. ten updates about me. HAHAHAAA....

so. i'm stil sick and hubby decided to bring me go see the doctor.

turns out, it's quite severe. but NOT H1N1. no it's NOT. but antibiotic in my body really low. that's what he say.

and turns out. my fever is 39 degree !!! omg. hubby say if 40 then will go crazy. HAHAAA..

ok. din go class today. but had mc. Then have to rest for fri's work. ugh. well. at least i have to go for the first impression.;D

ugh.

feel so sick.. i feel like puking any minute..

T_______T

waiting for hubby's dinner. he's cooking tonight.

feel so dead.

me, myself and i

so, i'm back at KL right now. and was pretty emo shit.

1stly: the mom thingy.

2ndly: the bf thingy.

and

3rdly: the self-thingy.

Everything seems such a big thing, like who i really was, or what i really was and all that. i'm tired of arguing, to speak out for my rights,guess after the few months of trying to speak out my points have just left be to nothing but being a bitch. Sometimes i feel that enplaning something to someone isn't as easy as teaching them ABC. People are getting so rebellious right now, it's like words can[t prove anything. you need incidents, or situations to happen to prove to them, and even incidents or experience people see are slightly different than what you thought and feel. I wanted to argue, but didn't want to look as if i'm covering up my ass, so i just shut up. But instead, my heart was torn into pieces. The disappointment in myself. I should have been smarter, to be more aware of surroundings and make it clear so that people will not accuse me or think wrong of me.

Maybe the oldself me was better. Though, whatever i do is never perfect enough for you. Never gonna be THE ONE. Everything i do, i do it for you. even if i did it for you and you didn't know, but yet you feel that i'm changing. it doesn't matter. i'll just have to find a way thru.

Then another burden come on me and i feel the stress around me. I try not to care, not to think and stay away from it. but fingers are still pointing at me. what else can i do? i can tell people, i can't talk to them about it. Things happening inside and outside. It's as if, there's no where i could run and hide.

But now, with a new job, starbucks. I hope, things would be so much better. and from there, i can show you, you and you. i am not who you think i am. call me a bitch and i don't care. i'm gonne find what i want. MY WAY!

Don't confuse me.

Sometimes i really wonder what you are thinking. Though i sometimes i feel that i'm nobody. Not someone to judge you or stand in your way. but after all this time. Don't tell me feelings never occur between us? The toleration i have to go through. Sometimes i'm sick of all your bullshit and stop treating me like this.

At times i wanna stand up and just hit the table and tell you that you're so stupid, but at times i feel that maybe it's not worth it. Whenever you smile and put a smile on my face, i forget about everything, all the frustration and the hate within me. But whenever things like this happens, i feel so .. UGH!. i can't say i hate u. cz i love too much to hate. Sometimes i feel that you're just so darn selfish but i daren't say anything. wtf.

*sigh*. i don't want to write much in case you understand what i write. anyway, a lesson to learn? Maybe i should stop trying to put so much effort and wait for you to put more. cz at times i feel like an idiot like i'm so despo for it.

don't want to say much. ciao

officiallly employed. >.<

So yes... as my titled says it. ;D.. i'm officially a starbucks employee right now. HAHAAA.. heard from my friend she tried to get the job but she didn't. even carol didn't get it!! HAHAA.. well, cz they fella was like they don't have empty vacancy. so. oh well. ;D. it was my luck..

So, went thru a BIG HELL INTERVIEW which i was sweating my palms off. HAHAA. but hey! i finally got it. ;DD
now to mention what i'm gonna face. 1st month it's gonna be lots of things to do. cz there's actually a test!!!! well, who expected that working at starbucks there's a test to go? But from what i heard from my manager, she say so far no one has failed. HAHAA.. 17 chapter in 4 weekss.... hmm. that means 5 chapter A WEEK!!!!. hope it's not hard. . but somehow i'm realllllyy looking forward toward it. ;DDDD

but one troublesome thing. i need to have my EPF done. wth. ugh.

Gonna start the training NEXT weekend. but before that, i have to go to a first impression thingy. (not sure what's that. but have to wear formally for F&B [food and beverage]. So then, after that, need to go down to Berjaya Time Square for 2 days training.. well, more like one and a half day. HAHAAA....
oh!!! and i get to learn the recipe of ALL the coffee's and beverage there! HAHAA. ;D. yay to me.. i've got a boyfriend who is DEEPLY in love with coffee. HAHAAA.. maybe part of me is wanting to learn more is cz of him;D

so.. HAHAAA.. wish me luck and all the best. though i know it's gonna be all about TIME MANAGEMENT!!!!

yesterday....

all my troubles seems so far away.~~~~

lalalalalalalala- stupid song stuck in my head.

ANYWAY. really random pictures of yesterday. Hubby had presentation ytd. (first time ever he wore nicely to class). all his classmates were shocked. i'm seriously. it's like seeing cinderella in her wedding gown. HAHAHAHAHAHAAA... anyway, we went to eat pork noodle at ss15 for lunch..

then i went t pyramid. bought a hair dryer. >.< . some stuff. and magazine. ;DDD buahahahaaa

then hubby came and find me. poor thing. by the time he found me. he was all sweating from all the walking. HAHAA

then we had secret recipe.. WOHOOOO




mini burgers. blueberry cheese cake . ice lemon tea. ;DDDD

i'm in love with mini burgers. with ALPHABETS FRENCH FRIES!!!!! omg. i sound like a kid seriously.

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i just sudden know what about be the best birthday cake. HAHAAAA.. *hint*hint*.

a new york cheese cake. ;D. with FRESH STRAWBERRIES ON TOP!!!!!. too bad they don't have fresh blueberries HAHAAA..

if not. blue berry cheese cake with strawberries!!!!. omg.. blueberry cheese cake with fresh strawberries. AHHHHHHHH.... i want that. HAHAHAAAA.. i'm being so obvious right now.

>.<

broadband piss me off

argh. internet connection is NOT STRONG ENOUGH!!!.. so much things i wanna blog about. but yet.

stupid connection. blah.!!! it won't update my photo's. *sigh*

this IS something

Ever heard of Urban dictionary? HAHAAA.. if it wasn't for xian i wouldn't even know too.;D.

it has the funniest thing. some are quite true. HAHAHAA

check this out..

1. Catherine

Hella orgasmic cosmopolitan mama with no babies. Wicked, happy, and the sexiest piece of ass your pearly whites will never sink in to. An amazing individual who beasts at everything. She takes crap from no one and makes people laugh like there's no fucking tomorrow. Sweet most of the time but will shut a bitch up quick. Shes athletic and loves music.. and shes a sexy piece of ass as well. a girl who never gives up hope never lets out how she feels and keeps it all locked up inside she tries to laugh but life isnt a joke.shes pretty wonderful A really really great person. Regarded by most as the greatest, sweetest, awesomest, coolest, nicest, and greatest thing thats ever happened to their lives. an interesting little chick who is mostly crazy all the time and enjoys random songs by demi lavoto and hillsong. she happens to be a very good best friend and seems to be addicted to music....and whipped cream. she hates cats. 2. Jeanette A very sexy young woman with a great ass and nice tits. Also very flirtatious. trashy ass hoe bitch, a mother who is very old but awesome and crazy. takes care of her baby like a lion. .. HAHAHAAAAAAA..

HAHAA

Everyone who has a laptop has trouble trying to cool down their laptop. buying laptop coolers, and finding ways to cool their laptop. Isn't it? Those overseas.. i don't know. But those n m'sia here. It's definately.

Some has gone through cases like laptop shutting off by itself cz it's too hot. I have gone through a case that my laptop wouldn't charger because the ADAPTER was overheated. But this morning. I found my laptop off. And i tried to turn it on. But i couldn't. And when i touhed it. it was COLD> like you just took it out from the fridge. HAHAHAAA.. so it just wouldn't turn on. We open the door. Took the battery out. off the aircon. and waited for like 2 min. and turn it on again. it worked

well, this proves that laptop can't be used if it's too cold either. HAHAA..

i swear. never in my year i've used my mac that it's been that cold. HAHAA

♥ We are sisters. ♥

♥ love sayang. ;DDDDD

hehez..

i was looking thru random files trying to sort it out when i found these.. HAHA

I MISS YOU LE~ ♥

=/

i so wanna cry... badly.

another update.

Finally. I'm going to update at least a little about me.

hmmm.. still no full internet access. But got back my hsdpa. (though it's not very fast).

anyway, been staying at laine's place for the past few days. that's why no internet.

Yesterday, went to help gacky with her assignments. (will update on it later on with pictures from her). HAHAHAA..

ok.. very short brief about what happened. as you all know, my grandfather has passed away. And so. we mourned it the tradtional way. so, there's this thing that we aren't suppose to go into any house which has a SAN TOI (those mini buddhist temple). cz apparently, it brings bad luck. yea...

and such unlucky case for me. HUBBY has a guan ying san toi at home. So i can't go in. First night, i had to help hubby with his work. So we went to starbucks and mcD. so didn't sleep the whole night. But at 7am. we knocked out. ( because i haven't been sleeping for the past 2 days too). So, i fell as leep in the car. yup. the car.

THEN. the next night, we stayed at laine's. OMGIOWEYOUBIGONE!. So then. it's been hubby running up and down usj and his place tkaing things for me.

Sem is starting next week. Don't know where i would be staying. maybe at grace's. *sigh*. i feel i'm troubling everyone and i feel really really really bad about it.=/

Going back ipoh this week. Miss you BFF. ;DDD..