Just hate it when they give u hope and just let you down just like that.
it's like they throw you down and ignore you.
geez...have a heart...

Do you know that i love you?
How i feel for you is smth i've never felt before.
i have no regrets of meeting back with you,
cz i'd rather have a short memory than have none at all.
As i sit here thinking of you
are you thinking of me too?
or her?
i really wonder.
But if it was her,
i don't blame you.
Sometimes i do wonder,
do you treat her like how you treat me?
every single action taken.

Have you ever heard
Action are more than words.
All you've done,
I loved it
i'm happy and i'm glad.
this is because i love you

Do you know how i feel towards you?
do you know how i think about u?
i've been searching for someone like you
to guide me and teach me
even i'm wrong.
Noone could ever give me how i feel right now.

One thing i know, that is.
Love can never be force.
So if you don't feel the way like i do.
We both understand.

what's worst than being sick and stuck at home? with unstable internet and nothing to do?
geez....Then there's just so many things you wish to do but you just can't..

-i'm bored-

*sigh*..where's life when you need them?

Just when i start thinking how great it would be going back to kl. All the unconvinient things start coming out..argh...why aren't i studying at 'THE ONE'? damn it..transportation and food would be so much more DAMN easier..well, gotta eat as much as i like here as it'll be just maggie and me there..damn...wonder who my new room-mate is gonna be?i even wonder where's my room..=/

Hope may schedule won't be all cramp everyday of the week. I don't even know my subjects for the next sem..how sad is that?
Just thinking how i should plan my life and get it more interesting..
First-Get my hands on the guy I want!! haha...*it's a hint baby*..^^


[i love you baby]

oh great..i just don't know why. but i jsut want to blog..and i don't even have the slightest idea what to write.
or mayb there's just too many things going on in my head till i actually don't know what to say and they are all in pieces and i can't find the words..

People can just say the words 'forget bout it' or maybe 'cheh..like that only ma..'
sometimes, i really wonder, why do i even bother telling them?They assume they can just let me forget or smth like that, or mayb they though it's jsut small matter. Even if they went thru the same thing..maybe they were stronger. .

.I AM NoT.

i don't even know what the hell i'm talking here..

It's not everday
that i find a person quite like you
perfect every way
i finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that i want
i don't care if i act a fool
i would damn near beg for you !
put aside, all my pride
so don't keep me hanging here
cause this girl is falling stupid for you..
stupid for you..

the proper thing to do
is for me to act like a lady and wait
for you to make the first move
but i don't think you're getting the point
that it's you - that i want
i don't care if i act a fool
i would damn near beg for you
put aside, all my pride
so don't keep me waiting here
cause this girl is falling stupid for you!
oh, oh stupid for you

why's it always feel like i am
chasing love when nothing's there
and here i go just making the same mistake...

internet is finally working today...this weekend has brought me smth.. Having him here with me..
Is it wrong to love?
Is it wrong to take the risk?
Is it wrong to be with who i want to be?

i'm lose and confuse.
with every action taken..

Sometimes i just wish they are so many things i did more and things i did less..
sometimes...
just sometimes i just wish...

wish he would do smth..
It kills me just like this..

So many things i want to do but i just can't..
what can i do?

internet ain't working that well..geez. i wonder why.. been at home the whole day. i woke up at 1 this morning. no wait..it's this afternoon..haha..planned to get my blood checked..but i don't have the guts..oh great..don't know why am i so afraid of needles..=[..

went to dinner at KimBali last night with parents and their friend. Food was ok. after that, there was a freako drug-addict guy who kept following us. Lucky my dad was there, but still, he kept coming near me and i was so freaked out. Argh..anyway, when we reached the car. anotehr two freako indians were leaning against my car. Next to the driver seat. when i passed, they were like 'hey love...'..O_____o...got into the car and locked it. my mom walked ssssOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooo slow, i wished i could yell at her and ask her to hurry up or smth like that..geez...then drove to 24-hour McD at Gunung-rapat that area.. then went home. couldn't get online cz the line wasn't reli very good..geez...i manage slightly now only. have to wait friggin long for it to load...

i finally finished work!!!
wohoo..
no more getting up and sleeping early and worrying bout getting tired...^^

cant b'liv i actually got up at 9 smth cz my cuzin called me and asked bout my new laptop...geez...i need some sleep..haha...

but some people are just so friggin annoying to be around. why can't they jsut shut up and leave me alone? The only frigging person who makes so much friggin noise and is so damn frigging annoying..f*** some *** la...)(*&^@#$%^&*#$%^&*...

-sorry for being so mad cz some @#$%^&* has reli ruin my mood...****-

Kiss on the stomach: Im ready.
-Kiss on the Forehead: I hope were
together forever.
-Kiss on the Ear: Youre my everything.
-Kiss on the Cheek: Were friends.
-Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.
-Kiss on the Neck: We belong together.
-Kiss on the Shoulder: I want you.
-Kiss on the Lips: I love you.
____________ ____________________
_______
_____ ____ ____
What the gesture means...
-Holding Hand: We definitely like each
other.
-S lap on the butt: Thats mine.
-Holding on tight: I dont want to let
go.
-Looki ng into each others Eyes: I just
plain like you.
-Playing with Hair: Tell me you love
me.
-Arms around the Waist: I like you too
much to let go.
-Laughing while Kissing: I am
completely comfortable with you.
____________ ____________________
_______
_____ ____ ____
Advice;
D ont ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone
while
reading this,
youre definitely in Love.
___________ ____________________
________
____ ____ _____
Requirement s;
Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of
Relationships.
________________ ____________________
___
_________ ____
If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone
right now
and cant get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and
Whoever you are
missing will surprise you.
Repost this as "what each kiss means

Do dreams come true?
i've always wonder..

As i sit here online again. all i'm waiting is for friday to come. and for chinese new year to come. then i'll be going back kl. I sudden realize i forgot about my university results. Not out yet i'm so nervous..oh god...X___X

well, it's one in the morning, and i'm blogging. it's not anything big but i jsut had the mood to. like any other times..
today is the 7th of january. OMG..can you actually believe it? time has passed so fast and it's already 2008. Can't believe it.

There are some things inside me that i really wish i could say it out. Like he said, sometimes they are things where it's so amazing that you can't find the word to express it or to tell how it is..it's just unbelievable.
RIght now, it's still hard to believe that we actually met a.g.a.i.n..Do hope that i won't be ignored for another year this time. Back then we were not so close, but now, we talk and smile. What will happen? i really wonder. Sometimes i am really am afraid to express myself as i do not know how the other side feels. What if he doesn't feel the same way? Then wouldn't i be making a fool of myself?
But a friend did say, sit and think. If he doesn't feel this way, would he do all that just for you? I really wish it is true.

I'm just so worried now, it's half past one and i'm sitting here. Listening to songs and singing just makes me flashback that day. And i sudden have a feeling of making something.

Mayb we're still insecure. We've been hurt and left. Who knew? I just do hope time will solve all.

.baby, i love you.

i went to sunway today..with xian..^^..casson,eric and terry was there too. with another friend..casson bullied me...T_____T..promise to tell me why but din..e.v.i.l.....i.dun.like..fine...=/

went to work today and got my salary for the month,sadly, i can't leave tomorrow...haihz...when i mean leave as in leave work..i have to work till tuesday...well, at least she has some sense and some human sense who let people who are unconvinient to work leave..unlike some bitch who just doesn't care bout anything and just think they are like the greatest or so..haihz..so sad..tomorrow i need to work..full day somemore...T______T...
such sad case..haihz..

more pictures...me and xian..^^..pls do not mind me being fat and distorted...

she's cute right?
=]

i kinda like this picte..haha...

Pictures at xian's steamboat dinner..^^..twister..=]thomas, me, xian, and suyin = twister...^^


sorry that's not rotate..=]..
me with prince..haha...cute isn't he??

HAPPY NEW YEARS...2008

it's 2008 right now, here i am in xian's house. I seem to be spending loads of time here. it's fun to be with someone you can have fun. I skipped work that day a.g.a.i.n and went to jj. Watch AVP2. it's kinda disgusting though, but i watched the whole movie..wahahaha...without missing anything..haha...

today, 1st of november, i went to work. hope it's for the last time. cz i'm having some problems here. i can't believed i cried after work and was suffering so much. i am SO DAMN TIRED and exhausted. i can't actually believe me doing that. Everyone is like 'why are you working?' ..my answer...i dont know.. cz i never work before?? but now with experience..i'm just tired. i want to do the things i like to do...aren't you suppose to do that? i mean what for stickw ith something you don't like??

Can't believe 2007 is actually over...and it's 2008 right now...i'm 19 this year...O.O!!omg....haha... on eve's i stayed at xian's...[that was last night] and tonight i'm staying at xians too..^^...we went to rums..don't wan details now..wait for the pictures together..^^