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Friday, 30 November 2007
Wednesday, 28 November 2007
Tuesday, 27 November 2007
carol's back..
yipee...
wohooo..
haha..
i'm so happythat she's back..
love love love..^^
hehez..
damn it..
i started work ytd..
and only realized how much i can do..
and i nvr thought i could stand from 12 in the noon till 10 at night..
omg...
and today..
i have to do it from 10 in the morning till 10 at night..
i started tog et tired at 3..
but...
no help..
this is like in primary when the teacher punish u to stand..
wow...
i got fifteen minutes left and i need to go to work d.
i'm so sorry that now i can't spend time online already...
but do drop my msg's and comments here or on friendster..
lurve~
Saturday, 24 November 2007
The 1st Affair
A married man was having an affair with his secretary. One day they went to her place and made love all afternoon. Exhausted, they fell asleep and woke up at 8 PM. The man hurriedly dressed and told his lover to take his shoes outside and rub them in the grass and dirt. He put on his shoes and drove home. "Where have you been?" his wife demanded. "I can't lie to you," he replied, "I'm having an affair with my secretary. We had sex all afternoon." She looked down at his shoes and said: "You lying bastard! You've been playing golf!"
A middle-aged couple had two beautiful daughters but always talked
about having a son. They decided to try one last time for the son they always wanted. The wife got pregnant and delivered a healthy baby boy. The joyful father rushed to the nursery to see his new son. He was horrified at the ugliest child he had ever seen. He told his wife: "There's no way I can be the father of this baby. Look at the two beautiful daughters I fathered! Have you been fooling around behind my back?" The wife smiled sweetly and replied: "Not this time!"
The 3rd Affair
A mortician was working late one night. He examined the body of Mr. Schwartz, about to be cremated, and made a startling discovery.
Schwartz had the largest private part he had ever seen! "I'm sorry Mr. Schwartz," the mortician commented, "I can't allow you to be cremated with such an impressive private part. It must be saved for posterity." So, he removed it, stuffed it into his briefcase, and took it home "I have something to show you won't believe," he said to his wife, opening his briefcase. "My God!" the wife exclaimed, "Schwartz is dead!"
The 4th Affair
A woman was in bed with her lover when she heard her husband
opening the front door. "Hurry," she said, "stand in the corner." She rubbed baby oil all over him, then dusted him with talcum powder. "Don't move until I tell you," she said, " pretend you're a statue." "What's this?" the husband inquired as he entered the room. "Oh it's a statue," she replied, "the Smiths bought one and I liked it so I got one for us, too." No more was said, not even when they went to bed. Around 2 AM the husband got up, went to the kitchen and returned with a sandwich and a beer. "Here," he said to the statue, have this. I stood like that for two days at the Smiths and nobody offered me a damned thing."
A man walked into a cafe, went to the bar and ordered a beer.
"Certainly, Sir , that'll be one cent." "One Cent?" the man exclaimed. He glanced at the menu and asked: "How much for a nice juicy steak and a bottle of wine?" "A nickel," the barman replied. "A nickel?" exclaimed the man. "Where's the guy who owns this place?" The bartender replied: "Upstairs, with my wife." The man asked: "What's he doing upstairs with your wife?" The bartender replied: "The same thing I'm doing to his business down here."
Jake was dying. His wife sat at the bedside. He looked up and said
weakly: "I have something I must confess." "There's no need to, " his wife replied. "No," he insisted, "I want to die in peace. I slept with your sister, your best friend, her best friend, and your mother!" "I know," she replied, " now just rest and let the poison work."
Friday, 23 November 2007
My girlfriend and I had been dating for over a
year and decided to get married. My girlfriend was a dream,
but there was one thing that was bothering me. Her
gorgeous sister was 20 and wore tight miniskirts and low-cut
blouses. She would regularly bend down near me,g iving
me a spectacular view of her cleavage.
One day her little sister called me to check
the wedding invitations. She was alone when I arrived. She
said that she had feelings and desires for me that she could
not overcome. She said she wanted to make love to me
just once before I got married and committed for life.
I was in total shock and could not say a word. She
said, "I'm going upstairs to my bedroom and if you want
me, just come and get me." I was stunned. I was frozen
in shock as I watched her go up the stairs. When she
got to the top, she removed her panties and threw them down
the stairs at me.
I stood there for a moment, then turned and
went straight to the front door. I opened the door,
stepped out of the house and walked straight toward my car.
My future father-in-law was standing outside. With
tears in his eyes, he hugged me and said, "We are very happy
that you passed our little test. We could not ask for a
Better man for our daughter. Welcome to the
family."
The moral of this story is: always keep your condoms
In your car.
THIS ONE BELOW WILL MAKE YOU SMILE AND BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY!!
EXCELLENT POEMS BY NOT SO FAMOUS POETS... FOUND ON TOILET DOORS AND WALLS..........
A BUDDING POET TRYING HIS BEST...
HERE I LIE IN STINKY VAPOR,
BECAUSE SOME BASTARD STOLE THE TOILET PAPER,
SHALL I LIE, OR SHALL I LINGER,
OR SHALL I BE FORCED TO USE MY FINGER.
BEFORE HE GRADUATED TO BE A POET, HE WROTE THIS...
HERE I SIT
BROKEN HEARTED
TRIED TO SHIT
BUT ONLY FARTED
SOMEONE WHO HAD A DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE WROTE,
YOU'RE LUCKY
YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE
I TRIED TO FART,
AND SHIT IN MY PANTS!
PERHAPS IT'S TRUE THAT PEOPLE FIND INSPIRATION IN TOILETS.
I CAME HERE
TO SHIT AND STINK,
BUT ALL I DO
IS SIT AND THINK.
THERE ARE ALSO PEOPLE WHO COME IN FOR A DIFFERENT PURPOSE...
SOME COME HERE TO SIT AND THINK,
SOME COME HERE TO SHIT AND STINK,
BUT I COME
HERE TO SCRATCH MY BALLS,
AND READ THE BULLSHIT ON THE WALL...
TOILETS WALLS ALSO DOUBLE AS JOB ADVERTISEMENT SPACE.......
(WRITTEN HIGH UPON THE WALL)
IF YOU CAN PISS ABOVE THIS LINE,
THE SINGAPORE FIRE DEPARTMENT WANTS YOU.
MINISTRY OF ENVIRONMENT ADVERTISEMENT.
WE AIM TO PLEASE!
YOU AIM TOO! PLEASE
ON THE INSIDE OF A TOILET DOOR:
PATRONS ARE REQUESTED TO REMAIN SEATED THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE
PERFORMANCE.
AND FINALLY, THIS SHOULD TEACH SOME A LESSON...
SIGN SEEN AT A RESTAURANT:
THE HANDS THAT CLEAN THESE TOILETS ALSO MAKE YOUR FOOD...
PLEASE AIM PROPERLY.
Thursday, 22 November 2007
i passed my driving test beautifully...no worries...lalalala..^^..
i can drive now...hahaha...
next..beg dad to get me a car..haha..it's fat hopes..but still..haha..
omg..i still can't believe it. i have done it. yes...
i was so friggin nervous this morning. went there at 8.30am. lined up and so, by the time i got my number was 9. after briefing and waiting. 11. only my turn for the bukit and parking. so nervous. haha...new car man...not use to the gear..T_T..
then, when i was done, relief..but needed to wait for the other test...omg..i waited from 11.10 till 3.40 only my turn..=__________=..have to wait so long. cz they jump the numbers..so not fair..*haiz.. dad bought mcD and came around 2. was so frigging hungry..haihz..
finally....I PASSED!!!!...wohoo...lalalalalala..^^
Wednesday, 21 November 2007
Last night, my friends and i went to a Ladies Club. One of the girls wanted to impress the rest of us. So she pulled out a 10$ bill. When a male dancer came over to us. She licked the 10$ bill note and stuck it at his butt cheek!
Not to be outdone. Another friends pulls out a 20$ bill, calls the guy back. She licked the 20$ bill note and stuck it at his other butt cheek.
In another attempt to impress us. my third friend pulls out a 50$ and calls the guy over, and licks the 50$ bill. I'm worried about the way things are going, but fortunately, she just stuck it to one of his butt cheeks again.
My relief was short-lived.
Seeing the way things are going, the guy races over to me! Now everyone's attention is focused on me, and the guy is egging me on to try to top the 50$. My brain was churning as I reached for my wallet.
WHAT COULD I DO?
so,i took my wallet.
I took my ATM card,
swiped it down the crack of hiss butt,
took the 80$,
and left....
Don't think i don't know what you have been saying to jonathan. Telling him to leave me again and again. saying we were not meant together. what the hell is your point? I don't care if you say i'm lazy or stupid or just a bitch who is lack of attention. if you want to go around judging people. Go aHEAD!!! nobody is stopping you. But here i am making a point. that is -- I KNOW WHAT YOU DID AND SAID.
Talking to you won't make any point because you're just a grumpy old person who thinks you're the best. you grump over every single thing. You are being so picky. Well, that's who you are.
And i am not that person. I can be whatever everyone is saying. The girl who smiles? the girl who is happy? the girl who is fun?
or maybe the negatively, i'm a girl who only wants attention? lazy girl? or all those the public has been saying. I don't care.
But at least there is one thing i am proud of myself and i can say it loud. I care for my friends! i don't ask my friends to break up even though if they are facing problems. and, even if i only know one side, i won't ask them to break up! cz it's unfair. I don't go saying it's for their own good. They are the ones dating. NOT YOU!!
the decision is up to them. Not you. so mind your own business. If you want to ruin a life, get your own to ruin it.
At least, i care, for my friends. Unlike those people out there who just doesn't care about feelings. And they never know what F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P is. So, they will never know how to protect friends and back-up for friends. wherease, they just backstab them and don't care anything but he/she themselve. such selfish person in this world.
Then they go berserk for no fucking reason. I hate it so much. That they start screaming and for no reason or so, then they just start poiting at you and screaming in the streets like it's their own room. wth??
They ruined other people's life like it's nothing. *haihz*. what kind of people are these? and it's like the can forget about it in a second.
Sometimes it just pisses my off. i'm not a robot, i'm not someone who can change my emotions just in a blink. And what was it that she said? i am not a good planner? ask her to F*** off la.
And people out there! stop gossiping about things you should not. and back-off.. and those who did it last time. at least tell the truth and face the fact that you have offended people and try to feel about them!
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
Especially this i was doing. everyone answered so excitingly.
it was like
who was the last girl you hugged?
in my mind is like..........................................................................................
i don't know and i seriously don't know.
if you say guy, yea la. i remember. old lady? my grandmother la. but girl???FUCK!!!!
it's like i'm a soul in a wrong body. =___=. wtf??
screw it la. i'm so freaking boring..*haihz...what to do when life sucks..
so excited..haha
anywayz, i just came back from jj with my godmother [who is my piano teacher].hehez. she's coming for the big day too..wow. i do hope there's an audience. i miss the audience..^^
parents are asleep now. haihz. and getting trouble with some 'video production' here. i'm bored.
carol..i miss you
Bird bird birrrrrrrrrrrrrrd..^^..
this song is for you..=]i hope you like it.
No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you
I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could
Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do
Monday, 19 November 2007
=]
anyway, dad sez end of next year only i can get my electric-guitar. because this year i got my camera and my macbook pro. imagined if i asked for a car..T____T.. *haihz*.. missed sitting somehwere with wireless link and can just go online. Dad's been bugging me, sez he wants to check his mail, but it takes forever cz he checks every single friggin mail..=____=''.anyway, bored here. playing guitar and bloggin. Trying get my chords right ain't easy. =/. where's help when i need them.
stomach ain't well..T____T.
well, i went to do my hair today. sorry that i can't post any image..haha..i din take any..komenasai.
don't know why been quite emo recently, guess everyone's busy and no friends are free..=/
i need a drummer. anyone? please contact me.=]
Sunday, 18 November 2007
now i'm at meru valley with my mom in pn lai sak's house. waiting for my dad who is playing golf. but lucky her house has wireless, so i'm like having excelltn signal..haha..^^..cool..=]..
later going swimming. and i bet she's gonna start nagging that i'm wearing a two-piece..=.=
Saturday, 17 November 2007
i sit here and play my guitar
singing out my heart
All i ever hoped
was to be able to be with you
i stand at the streets waiting for you
but you never came
and you never call
what has happen i asked you
but you just kept quite all the time
days to nights i always wonder
will you ever leave me
why you hurting me so bad
why'd i love you so much
why couldn't you see
the love that i have for you
why couldn't you see
the care i gave you
why couldn't you see
me there by you
standing there waiting for you
I just can't stand it when some people just has to nag about things. I mean they have to have a say about everything. and when i mean everything. i really literally mean EVERYTHING. It's like they can't shut up a while or smth like. they have to say SOMETHING about it. geez.
Today, i went to my driving school to book my test. Getting my driving test done on 22nd. [Thrusday]..T_____T..so friggin nervous. Somhow what-rather i know i can do it. But still...!!!!..who doesn't get nervous on a test? right?...oh god...someone help me...=.=''.. and the worst thing is annoying pollution noises are killling me and telling me i'll fail. What kind of people say they support you but they somehow keep telling you that you'll fail? it's like cursing you or smth like that.
The other thing which really ticks me off is that...SHE TOOK MY FRIGGIN LAPTOP CHARGER AWAY!!!!don't know why the hell would she even want to do that. she keeps on going..''PACK YOUR ROOM!!CLEAN YOUR RO!!''but the thing is..I"VE PACKED!! and it's like..every day i'm cleaning my room. sometimes i really wonder how only she would shut up. mostly like an empty room only she'll be satisfied la. STUPID....
i have my paint-brushes on my table. she ask me why am i not keeping it? it's like..geez..i'm doing a painting now..don't tell me i have to go to the friggin drawing to get out a tube of paint when i need it? stupid..never see my paint before don't ask me to do that. I paint my way and how i want it. It's messy but i love it. bcz it friggin makes me comfortable..
and when she found out. she's like..'Don't bullshit. how can it make y ou comfortable yo're just lazy'
yea..she's so god damn right that i'm lazy..that's why i'm so friggin lazy to layan her...=____=
Right now i'm just waiting for time to pass. going out to a concert tonight with jenfie didi, and then, tomorrow i'm going to another concert with my dad. so, waiting for time to pass only...
Thursday, 15 November 2007
Sick and tired
I hate my life. Thanks to some people who thinks they know-it-all it's ruined. aren't they happy..haha..
Noone to talk to, nowhere to go. Feel like shit. after what happen yesterday, i hate them more. Brings memories which i hate them even more.
Does anybody even care whether i am sick? how i am feeling? This stupid fucking stomach ache of mine has been with me for four fucking days. and they are like 'oh..i see'.. who givess a sht anyway? bad enough they don't care they don't let anyone care. even if there is someone who wants to care, they are like so friggin far away.
they should be happy i'm stuck with nowhere and noone.
i'm just so waiting for sem3..
Learning and i'm still
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangnin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything
that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
things i'll never say
Wednesday, 14 November 2007
I really laughed non-stop
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHaHAHAHaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHaHAHAHaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHa
This is Funny
THIS ONE BELOW WILL MAKE YOU SMILE AND BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY!!
EXCELLENT POEMS BY NOT SO FAMOUS POETS... FOUND ON TOILET DOORS AND WALLS..........
A BUDDING POET TRYING HIS BEST...
HERE I LIE IN STINKY VAPOR,
BECAUSE SOME BASTARD STOLE THE TOILET PAPER,
SHALL I LIE, OR SHALL I LINGER,
OR SHALL I BE FORCED TO USE MY FINGER.
BEFORE HE GRADUATED TO BE A POET, HE WROTE THIS...
HERE I SIT
BROKEN HEARTED
TRIED TO SHIT
BUT ONLY FARTED
SOMEONE WHO HAD A DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE WROTE,
YOU'RE LUCKY
YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE
I TRIED TO FART,
AND SHIT IN MY PANTS!
PERHAPS IT'S TRUE THAT PEOPLE FIND INSPIRATION IN TOILETS.
I CAME HERE
TO SHIT AND STINK,
BUT ALL I DO
IS SIT AND THINK.
THERE ARE ALSO PEOPLE WHO COME IN FOR A DIFFERENT PURPOSE...
SOME COME HERE TO SIT AND THINK,
SOME COME HERE TO SHIT AND STINK,
BUT I COME
HERE TO SCRATCH MY BALLS,
AND READ THE BULLSHIT ON THE WALL...
TOILETS WALLS ALSO DOUBLE AS JOB ADVERTISEMENT SPACE.......
(WRITTEN HIGH UPON THE WALL)
IF YOU CAN PISS ABOVE THIS LINE,
THE SINGAPORE FIRE DEPARTMENT WANTS YOU.
MINISTRY OF ENVIRONMENT ADVERTISEMENT.
WE AIM TO PLEASE!
YOU AIM TOO! PLEASE
ON THE INSIDE OF A TOILET DOOR:
PATRONS ARE REQUESTED TO REMAIN SEATED THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE
PERFORMANCE.
AND FINALLY, THIS SHOULD TEACH SOME A LESSON...
SIGN SEEN AT A RESTAURANT:
THE HANDS THAT CLEAN THESE TOILETS ALSO MAKE YOUR FOOD...
PLEASE AIM PROPERLY.
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
whatever
Went back to school today and the teacher were just so shock..=_________________=..gave the LUCT big book to them and they were like..OMG..and needed me to sign the book and then went to the ass. head and told her and i had to start talking to her. and all my juniors were like screaming when they saw me. wow..the days of high school. So way much different than right now..
Jin Moon picked me up from hosue today, went skul lunch and bla bla bla. [lazy to write]. nothing much special..
but i was lying on the bed drained and emotionless yesterday, thinking about life and love.
What's this thing call love? Do you know? Do i know? Do you think i know? When you're with someone, you'll say that's love. Love is blind and all that. But as sean say, the one you will be for life as your partner isn't your love. When you miss someone, you want to be with that someone because you are happy with him or her, is that love? like? or just a feeling for a good friend? This is the first time i dare say i'm single and i am not afraid to accept the fact that i'm single. because i have a bunch of friends who care for me. and for me. THat's LOVE.. so, guys out there? don't come telling me you love me and all that shit when you only search for me when there's someone, True love is not easy to be found..
[don't know what the heck i'm posting here]
Another Survey for me..=_=
1. How old will you be in five years?
* 23
2. Who did you spend at least two hours
with today?
* No one..T_T
3 . How much do you weigh?
* 47.=/
4 . What do you look forward to most in
the next 2 months?
* Carol coming back and my new laptop..^^
5 . What's the last movie you watched?
with who?
* Ghost Rider..alone..=[
6 . Who was the last person you called?
* My dad..
7 . Who was the last person who talked
on the phone with you?
* talk? As in long chat or just a while?
A while : my dad
Long Chat :
8. What was the last text message you
received?
* Do you have Azmir contact number? By jang
9. Who was the last person to leave you
a voicemail?
* nobody
10. Do you prefer to call or text?
* depends..^^
11. What were you doing at 12am last
night?
* playing my guitar..^^
12. What is your current mood?
* sienz…
13. When is the last time you saw your
mom?
* yesterday?
14 . What color are your eyes?
* dark brown
1 5. What time did you wake up today?
* 1 o’clock in the afternoon.=]
16. What are you wearing right now?
* shorts and t-shirt
17. Do you find love or wait for
it?
* Erm..can I skip this question?
1 8. Where is your favorite place to
be?
* Don’t know.
19. Where is your least favorite place?
* Anywhere I hear lectures and naggings
20 . Where would you go if you could go
anywhere now?
*
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10
years?
* In
22 .
* None
23. What do you fear the most?
* being alone
24. Who was the last person to send you
a message?
* Jang..=]
25. How big is your house?
* Don’t know?
26 . Do you sleep with or without
clothes on?
* Duh~ clothes la..
27 . What color are your bedsheets?
* Red
28. How many pillows do you sleep with?
* 5..i don’t know why..no wonder I have no space
2 9. What was the last thing you eat?
* Maggie mee
30. Are u bored right now?
* YES!!
31. What do u wish to do?
* To have my own band and album..^^
3 2. College or university?
* university
34 . Quiz or midterm?
* none!
35. Gold or Silver?
* silver
36 . Does anything hurt on your body
right now?
* yes
37. Opposite-sex that attracts you the
most by looks or special qualities?
* Er..heart..^^
3 8. Listening to any songs now?
* Yes
39. How long ago did you kiss someone?
* Don’t remember
40. Do u have a bf/gf?
* Sadly, Nope..
41. Hugs or kisses???
* both! Haha!~
42. Do you smoke a lot?
* No..
43. Do you know your blood type?
* nope
44. Do you dance?
* Totally..^^
45. Do you take daily medications?
* Why?
46. Have you ever drank alcohol?
* yes
47. What song is your ringtone?
* Er..Misery by Good
48. Do you hang on the phone for a long
* ????
4 9. Do you own a gun?
* i wish.. Haha~
50 . Do you get nervous?
* Ofcourse
51 . What is your secret weapon to
flirt the opposite sex?
* I don’t know? To get him to remember you???
5 2. Current worry?
* When will holz end?
53. Who is your most silent friend?
* Silent friend? Beckham..haha
54. Is the person you have a crush on
older or younger than you?
* oLDer..
55. What food are you craving for?
* Ice-cold fruits..^^
Monday, 12 November 2007
Not well
Don't fucking ask me to calm down because i'm not a fucking robot and i can't fucking calm down after you fuckingly annoyd me and offended me with your fucking words and fucking action. AND I DON"T GIVE A FUCK HOW MANY FUCK I AM SAYING RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I AM FUCKING ANGRY!!!i'm sick and tired of all this shit.
And guess what, i love my friends who are a bunch of guys and not girls because they are great, and yea, IF you wish me to be a guy then i'll be it! at least, i won't have to be nagged that i don't eat well or drink well or shit well or whatever fuck well. I won't have to be lectured to get raped or what or mayb i won't even be accused of being a prostitude. YEa..i'm FUCKING SENSITIVE about it and you don't know it. And who re you suppose to be again?? NOBODY!!! Everybody can say 'hey, don't get mad. you know it's them, without them, there's no you'. YEa, THANKS alot!!! because i wouldn't know how i would have been to without you. I'm lucky to have a place to stay. yea... but you know? i didn't know that one day, you would tell us to do the garden, and you can have the guts to say that we are like staying in a hotel. yea, this is your roof. whatever fucking thing you say is your way. you can say i'm cold-hearted or whatever shit. because i don't give a damn anymore. THe more i care, the more it hurts. BECAUSE I"M FUCKING SENSITIVE!!!
ppl say 'why don't you stand up for yourself?' yea.. it's no point. it'll only make things worst and i'll get more and more annoyed. i must well jsut shut the fuck up and release it not on you. You guys think you are the know-it-all. Go ahead, no one is stopping you. I never said anything about helping me and yet you would bug your head in and annoy me. I HATE IT ok? i hate the way you bug into my life and ruin it. IF you want to ruin one life. RUin your own. and don't go ruining other people's life! cz i've had it and i've enough.
I seriously can't wait for the day i can get my own way. GEeZ...
Komenasai
Sunday, 11 November 2007
True Chinese
1. You unwrap gifts very carefully, so you can save and reuse the wrapping (and especially those ribbons).
2. When there is a sale on toilet paper, you buy 100 rolls and store them in your closet or in the bedroom of an adult child who has move out.
3. You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times.
4. You save grocery bags, tin foil, and tin containers. You use the grocery bags to hold garbage.
5. You hate to waste food:
a ) Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them. (Your mom will give a lecture about starving kids in Africa )
b ) You have Tupperware in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.
6. You don't own any real Tupperware-only a cupboard full of used but carefully rinsed margarine tubs, take out containers, and jam jars.
7. You have a collection of miniature shampoo bottles that you take every time you stay in a hotel.
8. You wipe your plate and utensils or wash them in a small basin of hot water before you eat every time you go to a restaurant.
9. You own a rice cooker and a slow cooker.
11. You fight (verbally) over who pays the dinner bill.
12. You have a teacup with a cover on it.
13. If you're under age 20, you own a really expensive walkman if
you're over 20, you own a really expensive camera.
14. You're a wok user.
15. You only make long distance calls after 7pm.
16. You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attached-it means they're fresh.
17. You never call your parents just to say hi.
18. If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they'll ask if you've eaten, even if it's midnight.
19. Your parents tell you to boil herbs and stay inside when you get sick. They also tell you not to eat fried foods or baked goods because they're heaty ("yeet hay" in Cantonese).
20. You e-mail your Chinese friends at work, even though you only sit 10 feet apart.
21. You always cook too much.
22. You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table.
23. You starve yourself before going to all you can eat buffet.
24. You know someone who can get you a good deal on jewelry or electronics, computers.
25. You own your own meat cleaver and sharpen it.
26. Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin.
27. You know why this list consists of only "28" reasons.
28. You take this message and forward it to all your Chinese friends.
There are four more indications that you need to add 8:-
*29 You wrap with napkins all the knives, spoons and forks of the airline that you fly on and put in your travel bag as souvenirs.
*30 You never forget to take with you all the unused bath and facial tissues when you check out from the hotel because you believe that you have paid it all.
*31 You will laugh at yourself when you read all of them
*32 And you will always proud because you're Chinese. If you are laughing, you should be proud being one.
Friday, 9 November 2007
hurt
Hope you would re-consider. don't go
Loong, I don’t know if you would be reading this. Mayb someone would pass the message to you. Mayb not. Maybe when you start to read my blog, this post would be far way back. But it’s ok. I have the heart. I’m just lacking the courage to ask you to stay like everyone else.
I stand next to you in the silent, I asked if you really have to go. You just shruggle your shoulder and did not say a word. All your friends begged you to stay. Is it that you need even Kevin tan they all only you would re-cosider? I know it’s selfish to ask you not to go. But deep down inside, everybody wants you to stay. We are really out of hope. We just prayand wish to see you popping up, smiling and pretending that you never mention you were going to leave, just like you always do.
To kind of think, if you really go back, I’ll have nobody to go back to ipoh with. I have nobody to bring me out. Hey! I’m gonna get my license, then how can I fetch u out if you’re gone? Always you fetch me. What about my turn? It’s so unfair. Even if someone comes, he will never replace you. Even if he’s easy to bully like you, I don’t think Edmond would pull his pants, and even if he could, I don’t think he would be so lost in English that he needs my help, and even if he does, I don’t think he will have the heart to fetch us here and there. To KLCC and to SuNGAI WANG.. and then there’s nobody to go back with during the weekends.
Even if there was someone like that, I don’t think they would be someone who would always smile like you, and even there was, I don’t think the person would like to watch tv and dramas as much as you do, don’t think the person would wanna go k-box..
And even if everything is like him. It’s impossible, it’s one quarter in a zillion. And If we’re so lucky to get it. I don’t think the person would be having the name Kevin Lo Weng Loong where everyone would start singing about you and all that.
Its not that we don’t let you go. We know, sooner or later, one by one will leave. Who knew youw ere going to be the first to leave? It’s just..So early..i Really do that you would re-considerate on staying and hope that you would really know that you are a great friend. A best friend everyone could have. An older brother to me, a younger brother to sean, chien how and Edmond. And shan, beckham. And like son to jang. So manyof us. We will really miss you if you really left and things won’t be the same anymore..
Thursday, 8 November 2007
Gambateh to the future musician in china
This is a band called 20088..really, they are a band. consisting a drummer [female],two guitarist [male] and a bass [male too]..all four can sing..and guys what. they are only 7 years old..^^..they may not sound the best. but at the age like that, they are able to have the courage and the tempo to play and sing at the same time..good luck..
they are from china, and their aim is to be able to play in the olympics next year..well, we all here wish them their best..^^
[i love the drummer..^^..she's a girl and she can play that well..^^]
please take the test
Back at home
i miss kl life so fast already, miss the days where we are all cramped in a place, where paint is everywhere, the times where u go in a room in the daylight and you find that everyone is asleep. Where 3 o'clock in the middle of the night, someone would wanna go mcD. Miss the times where we will be wide awake waiting for the person to wake up so we can go for dinner. Miss the times where we wake up in the morning and go campus in a rush. Miss the times where we have to brainstorm for ideas, making calls and ask what should be done. Miss the times where we would just sit and song randomly. Miss the times to hear sean just sing and go high on O2. Miss the times where i would jsut sit there and see kLoong being bullied by everyone. miss the times i would jsut stand at the door staring at edmond playing guitar and wishing i could play like him. Missing the days i would just fall asleep on the sofa. and there's jsut so many things i am missing right now and i jsut came back ytd..omg..how am i going to survive this holiday..=.=...
well, got a job but i'm being nagged by my mom bout it..=_=..so, yea, carol's coming back on the 29th nov morning [ if i'm not mistaken]..well, i guess for the time being, i'll be stuck here then..=/..miss kl...T_____T..dunno if they would miss me?...haha,...i'm really dreaming..ain't i?
Wednesday, 7 November 2007
在等你
我...该说的,我都已经说了..就在这儿等你给我一个答案...我的心,从来没有跳得那么快..到底是怎一回事?我不敢看着你的眼睛说话...因为,我会紧张,我会怕,我该怎样好?
我想告诉你,我会继续的等. 等到你给我个答案..因为,我是真心的..
Friends or lovers??
友谊:说话时声音如雷...不拘小节。爱情:则是轻声细语...动作温柔...惟恐吓到对方。
友谊:同床异梦。爱情:爱里相思。
友谊:三秋不见如隔一日。爱情:一日不见如隔三秋。:
友谊:上公车时...和你一起挤。爱情:是护着你先上车。
友谊:一件事和你辩论到底。爱情:任何事都是你对。
友谊:盼望能同年同月同日生。爱情:则但愿同年同月同日死。
友谊:吃饭时...菜单各看一本。爱情:则是共同看一本菜单。
友谊:分手时说再见。爱情:则是说“明天见”!!!!!!!!!!!!
友谊:接到你的信时...明天再回信。爱情:则是立刻、马上回信...一刻都不愿耽搁。
友谊:会大声说我有很多朋友。爱情:则会说只有一个你。
友谊:买一样东西时...会说“没眼光”。爱情:则会说“你好眼力,会挑好的东西”。
友谊:笑会遥远祝福你。爱情:则是含泪遥远思念你。
友谊:是将你的相片放在相簿中。爱情:是会将相片随身携带。
友谊:走路时保持距离。爱情:则是没有距离并且手拉手。
总而言之一句...是友谊“地位平等”... 而爱情则是“唯你独尊”
Final
So, now what's left is my canvas painting. and i am not done with it. Too many distraction..haha..
*haihz.. here i am, with my friends here.. still depressing over the leaving of kLoong..T___T
Monday, 5 November 2007
happy birthday to a dear friend

today, 5th of november is my best friends birthday. it's her 17th birthday. ta-dah!!!Jeanette Thong Su-xian...xiannie..^^..yup..it's her birthday..altought i'm in kl, and she's in uk, cambridge. i still remember her..^^..

she's a cute little girl who friends and guys adore her=]..she looks like jap, so people always mistook her for jap and me as korean..but she's just amazing. She's a friend nobody could replace. We went thru happiness and sadness.
I knew her when i was 10. she was 9 then, i still remember, that my mom one day told my that we had new neighbours and wanted me to go see the 'little girl', ^^..that's her..she was just cute and adorable, she seldom wore a smile on her face, but i was always happy with her. i was always 'the-girl-next-door'. i tagged along with her and realize many things too

Soon, she grew taller than me..^^.. i still remember the day she told me that she was going to uk and i was like..O_____o...i'm going to lose a friend..omg.. and then i silently cried inside..i thought our friendship was going to end.. when she left, i started realizin, how much i miss her. i was always waiting for the day for her to come back from uk. for her long holz and i would always try my best to spend time with her. Until when i finish spm, she came back and i was on holz, it was her turn to wait for me..i feel so bad..right now when i'm in uni, she's the only friend i mention and she was my girlfriend, a best friend who is far away. we don't talk to each other, but deep inside, we always have each other.
Today it's her birthday, and i wish her...happy birthday..^^...
xian,
i love you and miss you..even though we are far apart and we seldom talk. my heart always have u..love ya girl=]

byez
Sunday, 4 November 2007
wet.wet.wet
We had malaysian studies test today.. started at 10, we left at 10.15..haha..as usual..^^..so anyway, we were required to do 3 essays and so on. So, we all finished and had lunch at plaza [i ate chicken rice] so, after that we left to kl..cz edmond was gonna buy his guitar and sean needed to go to the maxis centre at klcc...So, we reached kl plaza around 2 and kLoong couldn't find a parking, so 'the-guitar-lovers' [me, chien how, edmond and beckham] went down..and i was like..OMG....O____o??? when can i have one..haha.. i saw a pink one..it was lovely..^^..So, edmond spend time there..and i bought some picks..[i'm a collecter]..haha..=[ but then, i started having gastric...after that, when we went back the car, kLoong, sean and Ee-liang was fast asleep..haha..^^...so then, we went to klcc..edmond and i went to eat cz i was having gastric, kLoong and chien how went dunno where..haha.. so then after we finish, they called and we met outside the cinema, was thinking of watching amovie but it was too crowded and kLoong could only think of going to sleep..haha..[as usual..^^]
So we left, everyone fell asleep in the car..as usual, in the beginning, everyone would be like high on O2..haha..they will sing and scream and imitate voices and so on.. and kLoong will be like the dad driving..haha..^^...then laster on, one by one will falll asleep..and you can hear sean snooring..^^..well, can't blame him..he's a baby having his good sleep..haha..=]
Then we came back to hostel and EVERYONE fell asleep soon.. i did for like few minutes.. Edmond thought me some guitar and i just can't wait to have one and then edmond can teach me more..^^..wanna learn canon rock...WOHOOO!!!..=]
So, then, we went for dinner at 11o'clock when kLoong woke up.. After that, when we came back, chien how gave me his wallet and keys and everything and told me that SOMEONE will be thrown into the pool...wakakakaka..=]..poor ee-liang..thrown into the pool..slippers came off and glasses came off too.. and then he couldn't find it.. kLoong saw it and then i went in and dived in to get it.. everyone seems shock that i can swim...haha..anyway, then kLoong went in the water to get the other slipper.. securities were there as soon as i came out and they started questioning, so we said his glasses fell and all that and we just left..haha..So i was all wet..=]...kinda fun though..haha...friends..^^..dun think we forgot your birthday, we're just waiting for the time..haha..=]
Saturday, 3 November 2007
Friends=family
I am proud to say, my friends, here in college/uni life comes from part of the world.. Different background, different style, but all together having fun...
Sean : penang [fun, enjoyable, get's high on anything..^^..fun and serious at the right time(drives)]
Edmond : sabah [everything is rock and guitar's.. gundam and wwf..^^..love to imitate other's voice and it very good at it..]
kLoong : ipoh [get's bully by everyone but never get's mad..connection to all..^^..going to taiwan and everyone doesn't want him too..(drives)]
Chien How : penang [long smooth hair, guitar player, good at art..^^..fun, jokeable and get's along..]
Shan : kelantan [quite at times but can get very noisy if he wants to...]
Ee-Liang : alor-setar [sleeps at akward times and the smallest guy..^^..]
kTan: sabah-brunei [anime and jap is him..^^..can't live without internet..=]
gerald: sabah [blur-est guy is this..sleep-walking and even does things he doesn't know..get's bully easy too..^^]
bryan: kajang [drives a matrix everyday, drawings nice and painting good. need help? can ask him..=]
edwin: penang [talk alot, that's him.. transportation problem..that's him..money problem..also him..need help..who else..^^??]
william: brunei [architect and buildings..always playing games..but for such a size, he's damn cute and adorable..^^]
zhen hao: kl [tall and thin..all girls after him..wanna change phone go find him^^]
Edmund: cheras [nick name beckham cz his hair, quite u see but he's not..^^..]
Jang: Korea [korean guy and that's him.. can be serious can be fun..hokkien, mandarin he knows it, neatest cleanest and that's him (drives) ]
So that is mostly all of us..and as the only girl here, i feel this friendship is getting stronger..
even though the next sem we might not be together..but i still see the friendship..and hope that kLoong doesn't go to taiwan like all of us wish him not to..
I don't give a shit what others are gonna say. They can say all they want that i'm a slut, a bitch or a player or whatever they want to.. cz all of us know the friendship here. we are like a big family..^^
Idiots
so, i don't give a shit on how things are going to work for those who won't learn. I've given my help and it was over the limit. I have my own life to work, but at least i don't go saying that career and all that is important, it's not that i'm saying it's not. But, they are really people who would really chose career over friendship and any relationship. i can say i've met quite a number this sem who only want's to be with someone over something. and without that thing, he and she won't even bother talking to each other. like i said, how can they have such cruel ass in this world.