wandering of to 1u

today, i woke up late..
geez, the second day and i was already late..
i missed malaysian studies..
historyof arts was proponed to the morning, so when i went there, it was already history of arts,
i sat next to Osaka and for only about fifteen minutes, then class was over...=_____='''
and i rushed all the way to campus..

Me, Kevin, Osaka and Gerald were sitting at the plaze at 10.45..
and i missed my honey so much, so i asked if he could come out, then i'll go 1u, since it's nearer for him..
so he sed ok, and i told kevin that i'm leaving first,
took a cab to Putrajaya Central station..
been messaging my honey all the time..
Then, i was standing there for half-an hour to wait for the rapid-bus for 1u.. ok..ok..i think it was more like forty minutes..
anywayz, i got on it..
paid two dollars, and then, i just sat there and waited.
it was better than i expected..
I reached 1u around 12.30 and my honey was there already..
missed him so much that i just wanted to run at him and pounce at him..
haha...[poor ming yew..]
hehez, so the first thing i did was go to the toilet..
haha...can't blame me for rushing to campus early in the morning right??
haha...so, after that, my honey brought me to 'Shogun' to eat...
i was like.oh god..why can't i have a better appetite so i can eat up all those cute little food..
hehez..
after that, we went to MPH..
i saw the book Indigo's star and my honey bought it for me..
omg..honey, you din have too..i love you so much..
muakzxxx
lovely, i miss my honey so much...
Then we went to watsons to get some stuff and just wander around..hehez..playing around like little kid..
oh god..
everytime i hug him, i just wish i could bring him home.
hehez..so i can hug to sleep..=]
muakzxx
huggies..

my honey left at 5 smth and i was just wandering aroudn when he called me and said my wallet was with him and then i was like..'oh yea..haha..i also forgot.''
so, my honey went for his lessons and came bek around 7. We just walked around for 5 min and went up to the car. He dropped me off at the rapid bus station there. lovely...[ladies and gentlemen, do not think that my boyfriend did not want to fetch me home, but he needed to be home soon, so he couldn't fetch me, if not he would have]

So, i reached home around 8 plus and then bought food up, ate, bathed and now here i am..
typing my blog for what i did today..

and guess what..
tomorrow, my honey is going to format my laptop..
wakakakakaka..
yea baby, so i do hope that things are much better then..hehez..

ming yew, i miss you so much already...

Not another average monday

God...i seem to be running out of title nowadays...
Can't find for the perfect title too..
anywayz,
today, is the 30th..haihz..and second semester had already started.
[so is for my honey..]
i woke up at 7.30 today with my avril alarm clock...
haha.. and then first thing i did was to msg my honey..hehez...missed him badly,
and then, i realized that my room mate was in the toilet, so i had to wait..
Then i notice..the rain was pouring, and there was thunder and lightning.=[..T.T...[scared..*whine*..my honey not there]

So, when she got out i went in. and i changed and so on..etc etc etc...basic stuff....haihz...such boring life without my honey around..
So, then, i got ready and went over to Kev's place and waited..turned out that Jang had driven all the way from penang!!!O____O..or was it kedah???blur...
he's the korean guy and we are the malaysians...but he is driving..haha...but in kancil only..what you expect??he wanted the Honda Accord..unfortunately,his dad did allow him..haha...poor guy..
So, then i went to campus at eight forty and my honey was already almost reaching there. =]..i miss him badly..

Then when i reached there, i saw my honey..=]..*yipee*..
then i sat down there with my honey and then just chat for a while and i left for class...freaking hell...had to climbed the freaking stairs four times at least today...ish...we had the meeting...i have class to 8 in the evening!!!!wtf????i was like...damn..i reli need my honey to help me with my studies then...
I was lucky cz i had photography studies for first period...=]..
our teacher, who is also my form teacher.=]..told us we neede a DSLR...haha...so i guess i''ll be getting that now, and end year we [ me and my honey] will be getting a mac book pro..*yipee*..both same..wakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka...

i'm so lucky..
hehez...my honey, then came over to my place..at my hostel..
hehez..=]..to spend time with me.. talked, laughed, chat and so on..
Right now, i am on his laptop..[he is here]..honey i love you..muakzxx..*hugz*
and then he is going back soon, but then, later on he's going back.
Then i'll be all alone here..i'll miss him badly..

me and my honey..[love this picture..]

youngersters nowadays

i was going thru my friendster bulletin board and came across a post about this girl. so i clicked and saw this video.
i was shocked and just felt so ashamed.
It was this girl from a school in my hometown, she was declared as the 'flower girl' of the school. Well, this flower girl is voted and picked by the entire school. Back then, in my school years, the flower girl was picked by looks, attitude, poise and everything. When i saw this girl, she just looked like no more then average looking and she was slapping someone and pretending to be some gangster girl or what.
*sigh* nowadays, what are they thinking?
and the other thing is that, when they posted it on youtube, it's such a stupid thing to do.
imagine the victim's parents are going to sue her for slapping her daughter, it's all over the internet.
and the names they come up for themselves thinking they are some jap cute names or smth like that,
such an insult for us girls.
why can't they just grow up?

here, i feel bad and sorry and i wan to apologize to all the prefects in my high school [ sorry for always scolding you all and going against you ]..i feel so bad now. haha..but at least, i never go around slapping you guys don't i?hehez.
=]

well, all the best to everyone..

honey, pls dun be shocked. k? muakzx. i love you

missing you badly

It is a Sunday and i am missing you badly,
Where are you?
and what are you doing?
Always wondering what you are thinking..

I am stuck in the hostel.
With no where to go.
I wouldn't mind if you were here.
And i'm stuck with this crappy connection.
trying my patients hard.

Yesterday, spending my time with my honey was very beautiful.
If i could just stare at him. And see him blush. How lovely it is.
I could just hug him and he won't mind. to see him being shy and stun...so cute...
hehez..

i can't wait for monday to start, then i'll be seeing him then. i'm so happy with him.
honey, i love you..=]

scene

Neither it is newly taken nor old.
It was during the holidays, in Sunway Tambun at 6 in the evening.
what do you think???

reading

This happens when you are bored and you read...
But it was a very interesting book.
by an author; Hilary Mackay..awaiting to get his sets of books..

That book there is

disappointed

today, i went out almost the whole afternoon. watched two movies in a row.
Harry potter and the order of the pheonix and The simpsons movie.

So, harry potter....was reli unexpected...cz they reli cut out alot!!!and when i meant alot i reli meant ALOT! as in 50 percent was cut of and 20 were cut shortand changed. what the hell??They cut out so much.. *sigh* it is so disappointing. When my darling told me that his friend told him that is was cut. i did not believe it. But now i do. So not fair. But it was kinda cool and unexpected the way Lord Voldermort and Proffesor Dumbledore fought. Fire versus water. wow..i know fire and water is something common but the graphic and so on are just amazing.

Overall, i am disappointed.

The simpsons was just funny and hilarious. Miss that show alot.

haihz..gotta learn better words

i'm back in KL.
in a way, i am quite happy, cz at least, i can continue to learn to be independent and without any naggings and annoying...
OH great, it's killing me.
IT's just like...ugh!...
she's just getting on my nerves,
she can tell me she knows it and yet she still wants to nag..haihz...
LIke dad said, why can't she calm down?
why can't she just calm down? if she is just so afriad and worry,
and she wants to care so much, she has her own life to do it.
It's not that i want to be rude,
But this is my life, and i'm gonna be 18, if i fail and fall,
i wanna learn and get up my way,
if she thinks this is the hard way, i'm sorry,
it's what i chose.
supporting me financially, is the biggest thing i can ever ask for.

I remember her saying once when i got into a fight with her,
that one day i live under her roof, one day she'll be controlling me.
wow..
now, i'm in kl.
and i'm not under her roof.
what does that mean? come on..she gotta need to know better words to say

friday the 27th

ok..so friday the 27th isn't a big deal. But today, is a big deal. right honey?
Today, is the third..no..actually is the forth day, cz i came down on tuesday, right? haha...*blur*

I currently had this slang in me. what the hell???had been picking it up since i'm talking fully english, [ and when i went fully i meant pure, like talking to a white guy..], so yea, there's just this slang in it. ugh! why can't i be normal? i dunwan other's to think that i am trying to pretend or smth like that.

I slept at 12 yts, after reading the 7th book of harry potter [ i'm not done yet ], and then i forgot to call my honey and fell asleep...[ oh fuck!]
but i woke up at 3 and called him. Then, I took my medi and fell asleep. woke up at nine today and got prepared to go to campus.
Ming yew said that he would be reaching campus around noon, but then at ten he said he was on his way, and i had to rush. And then, i took a cab there when i was all ready and so.
He was at his faculty and i had to go up there, turned out he had more friends there...O_________O...scare the shit out of me.
Anywayz, after he got his time-table [ it looked like he has many free-time]
we went to klang [dun ask me why so far] to eat. yea, we went all thew ay there to eat. haha. after all the chatting and being so akward, we left for The Curve.

Watch transformers at three.Before that, was standing outside the counters there watching the trailers of all the shows, oh god.. all those scarry and horror movies just made my stomach turn 360degrees and i wanted to p uke. ..haha..so,i never watch any of this robot shows or transformers. But it's just so nice, the cars, wow...lucky ming yew had the patients tp explain to me.[ you know how dumb i can be]
so, yea, after that, we went round walking. Then his friend, simon, dropped us of at KJ lrt station.and came back here.

So here i am now, in cybercafe, cz my laptop is so screwed, i just dun have the patients to use it anymore, so i'm just gonna spend four bucks..two hours here online...or maybe one hour. well, who knows?

haihz, i just can't wait for my macbook Pro by the end of the year, haihz, then things would work out so much beta. right now, having a laptop and not having one is not much of a difference.

sick

being sick is something not everyone wants to be in. i feel bad that my honey is getting sick too.it's all my fault, if i wasn't sick, he would not be sick d. I came sick with a sore throat last friday before i left kl, just did not expect it to happen on the first day i came bek to kl.
I couldn't sleep the whole night. woke up on and off to blow my nose, and my roomate left the lights on. I felt bad for blowing my nose in the middle of the night. I was so restless and dead.I hate being sick.

My honey, came today at one smth. I was sleeping the entire morning. tired ler..feel so dead.
i miss him.
Just came from the airport, sent Ahyi and Chris to the airport, dad picked me up from campus.

Back to campus

yipee....so today, we have to report back to campus. For the second semester, still in my first year. Yesterday, i received my result. Imagine if i left in the morning..geez, what service. So, i wasn't reli satisfied, but i'll try my best.

Woke up at 8.32 in the morning. and went to the bathroom. when i came out, i saw her standing in front of me with a trolley bag. YUP..i have a roomate...now..Shirley's her name and she's in new intake, [from kajang]
She doing diploma in fashion, she started talkin to me. haha...so, yea.I have a roomate.

oh god..i'm sick..wanna die..

Back in KL

wow...i can't believe it..Two months has passed by so fast. To kind of think back, i've been running up and down.
p.s/ I DON'T HAVE HOMESICK...
i love it out here..
eventhough i am all alone..
but that's how i feel in this whole big world.
Have you watch ANASTACIA?? the cartoon. love that show,it's lovely, to have her freedom, to find out who she is.
it would be lovely to find out who i am too..
right??

so, now, i am in kl. Tomorrow will be going kev's place, then along with gerald we are going to campus. Bryan has moved out without informing us..[you evil...]haha...i heard they have this new housemate..where is he from again???anywayz.. Jang wasn't inform when term starts..poor guy is rushing back..haha..

So i am here on my freaking lagging laptop, and writing this wth full patients...hope my honey understands..it's twelve smth at night. god..better unpack..

kl here i come

so, i finally persuaded my parents to come down today..tuesday!=]
It is three o'clock and i will be leaving in two hours time.
but by the time i finish online will be four..haha.
my laptop is back here. but no difference.

honey..would you please help me format it?

To all those out there

I am not afraid to show and tell i have a bf. And i am proudly to say his name.

What the fuck is wrong with everyone?
Just because two have the same name, i don't think it's a crime, is it?
Then whose fault would it be? their mother's? Cz it was them who gave them the name. Right?
Don't tell me it's a crime to have the same name as someone.
Then why don't you tell it to everyone and let's all pick different for names? Have a computer system.
Then it won't be a crime, will it?
What happen between me and my ex is something EVERYBODY don't know. So stop jumping into conclusion and saying shit things.
You wanna go around and spread rumors about me, go ahead, the mouth is yours and nobody can stop it.
But people might be saying the same thing about you.
Why is it when a relationship ends, it's always the girls fault?
It's always saying the girl being CHEAP and going to another guy?
So is it that all the girls in the world are cheap?
what about your girl or you wife-to-be?

*sigh*
all along there were gaps between my ex and i.
And when relationship didn't work out well, my fault?
Is it my fault that he scolds me?
Is it my fault that he irritates me?
Is it my fault that he gets frustrated and get mad?
get angry?
Is it my fault that out attitude can't get along that well?
I have been tolerating,with him in KL. trying to fit in.
Trying to change.
and it's my fault?
Why not start a change and blame him?

let down again

haihz...so , how many times have i been let down again and again?
i'm tired and sick of getting disappointed like this. Right now, it is as if my heart has died against her.

Yesh, i'm gonna be eighteen in a few months, and i'm still being treated like an 8 year old kid...=__________________=....
oh god... when will this ever end. But one thing i am sure. In the year of 2010. i graduate, they can't do anything.

F*** it.....sorry..but i just can't help it. Now, i'm going down to kl on wed..not tues. I have to rush you know???Pack and unpack in one night. WTF????? i'm not some kind of robot and i dun have some kind of magic....geez...what's the prob with going a day earlier? and then she started accusing me saying it was me who originally wanted to go down on wed...she won't even allow me la...Stop putting the blame on me la bitch..So irresponsible...

FINALLY

the day has come nearer...and i've shorten it by a day..
haha...
i'm going back on TUESDAY!!!!!..well hope my mom doesn't ruin anything..like she's always doing it..
haihz..
so anywayz, my dad said we could go down on tuesday..
yipee!!!!
then i get to see my honey d...
haha...so happy and glad..
can't wait for that day..
and tomorrow is monday already!!!
wohoo!!!

All the suffering is gonna end.. and happiness here i come.
wakakaka..
just do hope i won't be push down and disappointed about tues la.

yesterday..

I could not say 'today' as my previous post cz yesterday i did not go online.
saturday was yesterday...duhh....
and we had a BBQ...i had a fight with my mom in the morning. called her smth and she overheard it and she went berserk...yesh..then started nagging and all the emotions and drama la...haihz..tired of it already.
Then, we had to go out for lunch.
after we came bek..
i had to scrub the porch..clean this, clean that. Do this and that. oh god. it was hell..
at night, xian came over. at least i wasn't stuck with some others...yesh...making a big fuss. i dun even want to say it out. see how bad it is??
F-A-K-E-R-S...is what they are....

yesterday..

I could not say 'today' as my previous post cz yesterday i did not go online.
saturday was yesterday...duhh....
and we had a BBQ...i had a fight with my mom in the morning. called her smth and she overheard it and she went berserk...yesh..then started nagging and all the emotions and drama la...haihz..tired of it already.
Then, we had to go out for lunch.
after we came bek..
i had to scrub the porch..clean this, clean that. Do this and that. oh god. it was hell..
at night, xian came over. at least i wasn't stuck with some others...yesh...making a big fuss. i dun even want to say it out. see how bad it is??
F-A-K-E-R-S...is what they are....

tomorrow

weird...ain't it? i mean why am i even making this blogged titiled tomorow?and then tomorrow i'll put today???haha..

so, anyway...
Tomorrow, colin's girl is comin with her WHOLE family....and she is sleeping in my room..[p/s..oni her..not the WHOLE family..]..then, not jsut her family, but her nephew. Then, tomorrow, my mom...decided to have a BBQ....wtf???
O_________________O?????
haihz....ok..so...anywayz, she wanted it. Dad started to complain, and she had this very irritating look on her face. I could just slap her. it's just so annoying...UGH!!!!...i can't stand looking at her... what the hell??? She makes me feel that she's doing all this just to impress other's. faker......

Most probably, i'm gonna have a hell of a day TOMORROW!!!!! you know why??? cz my dad even came and talk to me...he said...''Ailing..Nomatter what happens tomorrow. Just absorb the anger. Dun fight back. At night you can tell me all about it..''..wow...this is just serious..ok? he's not like that. He doesn't even offer to let me release my anger on him. He knows well, i mean...OF CZ !!!! that's his wife! he should know...argh...OMG......i just wish tomorrow would pass by faster.


haihz.....this is gonna be a disaster man...

gastric in the middle of night

wow..that just hurt. OMg....i was like..*whisper* help.....
i could not do anythig. i was just lying and crouched in a ball on the phone with my baby. omg..i was dying. i all sudden could not have the energy to finish what i was saying.
then i took two digestive pills. then we hunged up cz we were tired and wanted to sleep.
so, there was me, lying on the bed all curled up in a ball. praying the pain would go away. lucky it slwly fade away. well, the pills worked.[it always does].
Then i close my eyes and fall asleep.

sick...=[

well, what do i have to say? je suis malade .....yup..that's right. i'm sick.well, it started yesterday morning when i woke up. with this pain and irritation in my throat. ugh! so, i told my dad, and he told me i got the 'sickness'. He said the 'bacteria' has got me. haha...must'd wonder why'd he say tat right? Because it started of with my cousin from the states, then it spread, to his girlfriend, to his brother and now me. T.T...[p/s. I did not do anything close to him. Don't know how i got it.] So, the pain has got worst today. everytime i even swallow, it hurts alot. T.T...i wanna cry. and i know. as my dad says, the next few day i'll start to cough [ i have been coughing] but it's just that it'll get worst. you know? i might lose my voice. NO!!!!! not again. i don't want that to happen. No!!!T.T..i'll cry..no..why is this going to happen to me.

I remember, few months back, when i was in kl. i was sick. and like this. but then it was worst. i could not go to class for a week. with a bad flu, fever, worst and then started to vomit like...every 15 minutes. It was horrible. Sometimes i wish someone would just knock me out. You know??? haihz...

Today is friday, and i can tell u and i am assure, on wednesday. i'm still sick. T.T and then, what happens if my baby got it? no...i dunwan my baby to get sick..=[..T.T...i know that he said he doesn't mind. but.no, i don't want. i don't wan him to get sick. =[. i love him. So, baby...i know you are strong. right? Don't fall sick ya..=]..*wink*..love ya..muakzxxxx...

off they go

wow..so, off they go again. Hoping they will never be on me again. I mean, who wants to have them? They make you look like some geek, some nerd. But some say sacrifice and the pain are worth for the beauty. Do you believe it?
Yup...that's what i'm talking about. Braces.Yea, as a teenager, you go out to the street, you'll be seeing many of them wearing, in the states, no suprise. Well, it's not much harm when you are going to wear it only for once in your lifetime. But twice? it's not a good experience.
That is it! me! i wore it twice. and finally, today, i took it out.

ugh..having the fear of going to the hospital and being there was bad enuf. What more to be there. having the tube thing stuck under your throat sucking your mouth dry, and all the rubber flour and smell from the glove. not just that, the cotton stuck at your gums. Then the pliers come and they force the wires to break. *ouch* . Then they yank the whoe thing out *omg* . And the worst and scariest part? all those 'machine' thingy needle like drilling your teeth and gums. omg.. i know it's for the freak of beauty, to smoothen the teeth. but it's just scary you know? drilling in your teeth. the noise and the sound. just brings shivers down your neck. i was so tense. Then, when he touches your gum it hurts. and then half-way, you taste blood. you feel it and know it. You wanna know what's happening. it's just so scary. and to know. you are all in the room alone. Your mom won't be there for another two hours.

Please, dun let me go thru it again. once is enuf. Twice is painful. Not anymore.
I have to go back tomorrow for retainers. Well it's not over yet, but at least, there is no more drilling and so on. i so wanna cry. wann leave. my baby wasn't there. I'm so scared.
To remember the first time you took it off, you thought it's over. two years later, she comes back and says she's sorry my jaws are small and there's no place? i needed to extract teeths and needed to put them on again. T.T
Don't let me go thru it again.

start packing

well, packing has it's good and it's bad..
good- i'm leaving...wakakaka...soon....haha...one more week...yipeee....no more woman to nag and annoy me around. no more being oushed around...and all the privacy and time i wan.
bad??i've got to clean up and i'll get sick from all the dust...argh...poor me..hehez...=]

wELL, makes a very big difference too..
i mean...semester two is coming up. Been to some friend reunion and stuff like that. everyone is in form 6, all our roads are different. wow..it is different. Never knew that it would end up like this. well, most of my friends are taking like e-commerce, business, accounts, marketing and all that. Me?? i'm like so out of the topic..
haihz..but at least, i know, that i am not the only one. =]

sOMetimes i reli sit and wonder, what would happen, if i din take this road, would i be happier? would i be sad?
would i be archieving? or would i still be pretending to do what i like to do in front of everyone?
i reli wonder...

at times, i love to sit and think, just gaze at the sky. Why is the sky so beautiful? i once asked. I was told that, if i do good deeds, i will know why it's so beautiful, cz i'll be up there. Is it really?
Now, i sit and think, everyone around me, whom i've known for my entire life. Is keeping the biggest secret. away from me.
Who am i? what am i? where am i? i always wonder.
i reli wish i would know. to have someone to talk about it. i don't want to pretend i'm ok with it. i don't wan to pretend i'm not thinking about it. I want to talk about it. I want to ask about it. i know, there is someone who would talk about it.But, i'm afraid to mention it, cz would it effect him?I'm reli scared.

It took me so long to find one. Sometimes i reli wonder, which is worst?One to hurt me so deep or thirty to hurt me so deep?i realzied, mayb for some people. one hurts more than thirty. Mayb for some people, from thirty, you count back to one. it doesn't make a big thing right? but to kinda think of it. for thirty person to get me this hurt. how insecure and how many times i've been let go, dumped, lost and so on. i dun even know what the crap i am talking right now.
haihz....so, i'm just sorry if i made you feel bad.

there's only one wish i hoped for from everyone. THE TRUTH

changed

i changed my URL link again...
wow...i've been like changing it again and again..sorry carol..
haha...well, i just thought of it..that's why i got it..
dun ask how i got it. or where i got that name..cz it's a secret..
=]

So random

This was jsut so random, i was in Kl for the previous weekend. we went to 1u..[sorry later to write all the details..]
so, when we decided to go to the night market at Taman Megah at about 9 smth 10. then we were outside waiting for Uncle Bryan to come, we saw this truck got clamp..haha..he was in a clamping zone, and the funniest thing, the 'No Clamping Zone, fine RM50' was just next to him. haha.. I really wonder what will the driver's reaction is after seeing his'her car...haha...

so random...

'Craig David's-Spanish'

the love between two

it takes two to combine a true love.
It takes love to make things beautiful.

''When there is you and me,
There is love...''

love is a very beautiful thing

omg..i reli dunnow hat to say. here...
haihz..there's just so many things..
yesterday,
i went to sunway...with xian and her two friend. and i realized that, i am reli who i am. All along, i have wished for it, not that i am weird or anything, it's just that i always felt there was a distance between. Who else knows about it is a qeustion running thru my mine right now. i reli wonder, who knows? They can't lie to me. That face, That reaction on the expression has already betrayed them. Sometimes i really wonder why can't they just tell me the truth? would not that be better? And all the while for my entire life we're and they have been teaching us not to lie to be honest but when they themselves are hiding the biggest secret of our life..
People may say, come on, that's over, you should appreciate what you have now. yea, it's not that i don't. it's just that, I can't take it in so fast right now.

I'm tired, tired of pretending who i'm not. I'm not of people telling me not to pretend if i dunwan to. If it was so easy as said i would have done it already. haihz... but i know one thing is that, i am glad that i have you. with you and your mom. i need not pretend. i could reli relax and be myself. like your mom has said. i seem more relax and comfortable with you around. Of course, that's the truth. For me, it is important for that someone to understand me and to know how i feel.
Like when i get pissed with that woman for things which are not even wrong, i use to get the 'Ling! she's your mom! dun be rude!' kind of reaction. but for you, you understand me. YOu know how i feel. and thank you very much cz i feel that, it is very important to me.

I just can't wait anymore. how many more days are there? i reli need a count down. every morning i wake up to wait for the day to be over so the next day would come and it's comin nearer to be with you. Before i met you, i was lost, i never knew what i wanted, never knew what made me happy, i wasn't able to list it out, wasn't able to tell it to someone. it was all the 'when-the-time-comes-i'll-know-if-i'm -happy-or-not' kind..But after you, i KNow..i firmly know and promise it. You made me realize what life is about. For me, it is about being happy, and doing the things you like. I reli apologize if i'm old-fashion in thes way, the pick and chose the one the serve, to be with him. i'm not about career and job or money, but i'm about making you happy. I hope you are able to see the trust i put in you. I trust you, that i am not as insecure as last time. I don't hold back anymore. I don't pretend to be someone i'm not or someone i hate. This is why you are important to me.

Omg..I just can't wait to be with you. I dare'nt ask for more. Just being able to sit there and stare at you is more than i could ask for. Being able to make gifts and you appreciating them. i'm glad and so happy that i could fly. thank you.

This war we are going thru, we will win. cz there is nothing that can be in our way. Like i once heard 'Love is a very beautiful thing'....=]

last day at kl

today is the last day at kl. i am going bek later. so then, i'm here posting one before i leave.

Things did not worrk out as i expected or so. Sometimes i reli wonder, why am i not being told the truth? this pain inside me. when will it go? i reli hope time would be faster at this moment. i reli wish semester 2 would come faster. Because i know, i would be able to be happier there. but what can i do now? just wait. be patients.

Right now, i'm hungry, stomach is growling. haihz. what to do? i can't even put my words together to reli put my words. haihz..i need my honey here. he's good. haihz. i reli miss him. i need to wait for semester 2.

honey, i'm sorry that things have to be this way. but we'll never give up. ok? i love you. this is a war that we will win. ok? someone told me once that ' love is a very beautiful thing' right? and i beleved. hope you do understand. and being you to be able to understand me and my situation here is very important to me. sorry. i love you.

kl...

today, i came in kl..
yesterday my mom bought the bus ticket, we sat MARA LINEAR... she asked the ladt if the bus was air-conditioned...the malay lady said..''bukan air-con...hawa dingin''......O_o
what the???? isn't air-condition hawa dingin???
haihz..
malays nowadays...what is in thier mind?? i reli wonder..
anywayz....
so, the bus ticket sez 11 am...in the morning...
[i wasn't suppose to sit the bus..]T.T...i so wanted to cry..
not fair..haihz....i'm so depress and emo..haihz...
anywayz, right now, i'm already in kl and he's on the way from ipoh to kl. tomorrow hope i'll be spending time with him ler.. so, then, i woke up at 9, had breakfast and then packed a bit more stuff. the bus was suppose to leave at eleven!!!! but then, eleven thirty oni the bus driver came....[please remind me not to take taht bus ever again]
there was oni like 7 person in the car...=_='''
so then, it moved...lucky it wasn't as slow as sri maju.in two hours aroud there it reached duta.. and uncle eddie came with colin and christopher and then we went to 1u...
but my baby wasn't there...haihz...
what to do??

We went back to Uncle Daniels place, and then after all the confusion..[ugh! it's so frustrating] we went to KLCC...then went to find Uncle Joe [ this is getting confusing ]
so anyway, i was spending time at the hotel and sms'ing my baby...i was growing moss...and then, we went to klcc for dinner..mdm kwan..then, i had to bring chris to take the lrt to kelana jaya..there i had to wait..like for how long? half an hour?? haihz....my legs were killing me...so then, i was there..and then uncle Brian came and then he fetched me home.. so here i am, sitting here on the bed in colin's ibook G4 typing my blog..
and i am so happy..
haha
cz it's not laggin...
yipee!!!
i just can't wait for my macbook pro..
hehez..

then tomorrow..,i just hope there's no disappointement...i wanna see my baby...

last sunday

i know this is a very late entry, but yea..still.
i went to jj with kai xin,
the freaking ddr wasn''t working. why isn't it working???
not fair...haihz...
then i was taught to the the pump it five step one...not fun
i still prefer the four step one..ish..

but then, after that, we went to watch surf's up..* an advice to all other- dun watch it in a cinema, it's not worth it *

then we took some picture, it's a lil blur cz i dun have scanner...

changes

I never reli thought that dreams can come through, nomatter how tough it is, if you try your best, it will come...

this is what i've learned...

people use to ask me what is my dream, or questions like what do i plan to do whn i graduate or...you know, questions like that...i always tend to get lost. i won't know what to answer. I've always thought that dreams can never come true.. Until now, i realized that dreams can reli come true. if you work hard for it.
Everybody has ambition, right? to be a business man, or woman.. a lawyer, a doctor , an architect or anything. Why did they chose it? no choice? parents? or for the sake of getting money...I've always been worried about this. until, i found out. and he made me realized. i should make myself happy and i decided to do what i love to do.. And i know,by doing that, i make myself happy. =]

So, these are the changes that was made. i feel happier cz i know that i can do that i can do what i loved. and won't regret for not doing it.