could you believe i actually cried? i thought it was just stress and unhappiness. but when i talk to my dad over the phone, i just burst into tears. like sayang said" what's the point of crying? it won't help me a bit''. well, i don't know how to answer to that question. I felt so useless and sad and so frustrating that it's gonna trouble not just me but sayang as well. i hate it when it trouble's him. *sigh.
Unexpectedly i thought i could overcome it when i saw sayang, but instead i didn't till later on. Things have had happen and i so wish to speak it out but i just can't. Not here, Not to anyone. Like everyone is saying, this course i'm taking is so unexpected and so not me. =/. i wished. but i always believed i could over-come it. but unexpectedly with such a bad location and bad lectures. It just makes things worst. who is it to blame? me again for chosing the wrong university.
It's 12.39am now, and i'm lying on the bed blogging here. going to sleep after this, but just wanted to find someone to talk yet there's no one. So, here i am. Geez, i sound so desperate to talk to someone huh? Mayb b'cz i've been ignored for quite some time..hmm..
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